Eating Again

May 23, 2010

 Okay, so this past week I've been trying out different kinds of food to see how they go down.  Besides a hard boiled egg, I've had no problem with anything.  I ate French toast yesterday!  Here's the bad news.  Being nothing is disagreeing with me, I'm falling into bad habits.  I'm eating carbs and carbs kill me.  The scale goes right up.  I've gained four pounds since I've let myself try different foods.  I've been getting in my two protein drinks.  But, it doesn't feel I'm lighter.  I can't eat a lot at once.  But then when I feel less full I'll start grazing on my left overs.  And that's exactly how I feel, like a cow grazing in the grass.

 So, as radical as this may seem, I think I'm going to stick with three protein meal replacement drinks during the day and stay away from food until I have a little more self control.  I have a real problem with food and it seems, at least for now, I have to go back to protein drinks and soup.  If I don't have any other choices, it actually makes it easier on me.  I don't have to think about what I'm going to eat all the time.  And with good protein, I know I'll lose weight.

 I didn't go through all of this to be stagnant or to merely lose a pound here and there.  I'm still very heavy, so the weight should be coming off more quickly than that, save the occasional stall.  The last thing I should be doing just over a month out is gaining weight.  And no, it's not that time of the month.

 I realize, just because my stomach takes in less food, doesn't mean I can eat whatever I want.  I still have to stick to a healthy diet and carbs are a killer for me, and I feel I don't yet have the will power to stay away from them. I thought I did.  But French toast a month and a half out... not the best choice.

 My friend goes to weight watchers, so we encourage each other to make healthy choices.  I guess I thought having a smaller stomach gave me some special power to eat whatever I want.  Wrong.  The surgery is an aide.  The lifestyle I choose to lead is up to me. (Do I hear an Amen!)  I have to be as diligent as my friend on weight watchers.  I need to make sure I get all my protein in.  If I feel carbs are still a big problem for me, I have to stick with better choices like fish or egg whites, etc.

 Just in writing this today I feel more empowered because I know some of you will read this and either relate or give me encouragement.  I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have this website to connect with all of you.  Thank all of you.

 I'll keep you posted.

 PS  I can get up the stairs in my house now without huffing and puffing at the top!

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