End of a long week...but ending on the up

Jun 04, 2009

Well, surgery was 1 week ago (5/29).  It was a TOUGH week!  Ended up with an upper respiratory infection and "tightness" in my lungs.  But the superstrength antibiotics they gave me are finally kicking in!  Feeling much better this afternoon than I have for awhile.  Still achey and have pain under breastbone and under left breast...but suppose pain is to be expected for awhile.  I struggled at first with getting liquid/protein in as my bowels were SOOOOO distended.  But have been trying to walk more now that the infection has given me some breathing room...literally!    The walking has helped alot with taking down the pressure in my abdomen and allowing me to get in ALL MY PROTEIN/LIQUID QUOTA IN TODAY!!!!!  WooHoo! 

I was emotional this morning...afraid of being back at work next week and not sure if I can handle it.  But if I feel as good as this afternoon I will be OK...tired but OK.  

I had the sense this week that this surgery has allowed God to free me from the hold that food had on me.  Food sounds good and smells good right now...but I am not hungry.  I know I am full and getting all the nutrition I need.  It was empowering.  I am not a slave to food.  Of course, I do look forward to the first bite of something that is non-liquid...still 3 more weeks away :-(.  But, I know that I can do it and that food is just not that important...it is just a tool to nourish my body.    

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