My name is Donna and I am 36 years old. I was not overweight until after I got married. When I married my hubby, Brian, 18 years ago, I weighed a hefty 105 lbs! Right now I am pushing 320 lbs. I cannot tell you when I started gaining, but I believe it was after a major surgery in 1992.
I have a very supportive hubby, Brian. He loves me unconditionally and loves me no matter how big I am. Next to God, he is the best thing that has happened in my life. He constantly tells me how pretty I am and gets upset because I don't feel like I can be pretty looking like I do. I am not happy with me. I have no self-esteem, no self-confidence, and am tired of having to go to the "plus sizes" to buy clothes. I have a hard time believing anybody who tells me I'm beautiful, or I look good. I hate the fact that I can't ride on an airplane without asking for a seatbelt extension. I hate not being able to ride amusement park rides. I hate standing because I am afraid the chair may not hold me. I can't walk far without being out of breath. I cannot climb stairs very good because of constant knee pain. I also suffer from recurrent stress fractures and have been prescribed inserts in my shoes due to fallen arches in my feet. I have just recently been diagnosed as having sleep apnea.
I know that I cannot lose this weight on my own. I have come to the decision that the benefits of the GBS far outweigh the risk for me personally. I have done quite a bit of research and am ready to have the surgery. I am not scared at all. I know God is on my side and whatever happens will be his will. I also know that this is not a magic cure and that it is going to take alot of work and a huge committment. I am not looking for an easy way out, just a jump start to a new life. I am so looking forward to doing things that I won't do now, like dancing, because I think that everyone is staring at me because of how big I am. I have to do this...for myself.