My Journey

Jan 08, 2009

January 8 ,2009

New Years Day has come and gone and although I feel it is important to set goals - I don't set resolutions.  I try to look at I want to do and make my goal small steps to focus on.  If I have a huge goal it seems impossible unless i break it down in small steps.  I have been walking for my exercise but not as much as I would like.  I am getting protein in and think I am doing better with my meals but it is still a struggle cause I have lived my life a certain way for so long and change is hard BUT so very worth it!  Taking time eating is a big challenge because I hate just sitting there.  I have found sometimes I just get up and go do something else and then come back later to eat a bit more.   Taking vitamins can be so confusing and although I get labs drawn at 6 months I want to try to prevent low levels.  I did find out if you have a note from your doctor that the vitamins / protein should be covered by your flexible spending account.  I went for a massage the other day and my massage therapist said "you need to drink more water - your skin is so dry".  I told her I drink all the time but I have noticed my skin being drier.  I have started going down in clothes sizes (it is about time) - when you are tall I think you have to loose more weight to drop sizes which is a pain - but the opposite is nice in that I can carry more weight because of my height.  I know the one goal I want to work on is saying NO more to work and spending time with my kids!! I am blessed that I have the ability to do that and hopefully I can impact their life more when I am home.  I am worried about my daughter - she does the boredom, emotional eating, hides food and I feel helpless in trying to get her to understand the importance of managing her weight now.  I don't want to make it so much an issue that she resents me but I don't want to ignore the issue also.  I bring good food into the house but she sneaks larger quanities and then denies eating them.   It breaks my heart that I feel like I can't help her because I want to be there for her.  I guess I have a lot of guilt for not being stronger and standing up against my mother when she brought things into the house.  My mom continued to buy cokes after I told her to stop - it is very disrespectful and although I love my mom it is hurting that she doesn't listen to me.

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