Above Average

Sep 20, 2011

Well I met with the trainer at the gym on Monday and learned something really interesting about myself.  I am above average in my cardiovascular exercise!  I did a fit test (it felt like a cardiac stress test LOL) on the treadmill.  And when it was all said and done my results were great.  I can't even begin to explain how happy I am about this.  1 year ago we joined the gym.  I started walking at 2.5mph and no incline.  I was so tired and out of breath and had to keep slowing down to lower my heart rate to a lower rate.  Now I am running and planning my first 5K for October.  I am so proud of myself:)  I have been worried for years about the damage that I have done from smoking and not exercising.  When I saw my physician last week for my physical she said that running/cardio exercise will help if not reverse some of the damage.  YAY!  So keep it up!  Next week I go in to the trainer and get a weight program.  I really need to start doing some more weights.  My goal is to be able to go 3-4 days a week and do cardio and weights.  Walking and cardio on the other days would just be bonus.  But 1 1/2 hours 3-4 days a week in and out.  So that is our plan.  Develop a workout that is quick and to the point. 

Things have leveled off at home.  We have been seeing my husbands counselor together to try to learn how to communicate with each other.  It is amazing to me that you can start out knowing how to talk to each other.  Say all the right things.  Not be just generally pissed off by something small the other person says.  Yet end up with a total breakdown in communication.  That is where we have been.  So frustrating.  I take the blame for a lot of it.  I am not always a patient person.  (shocking I know)  So when the ugly side of bipolar comes out in my husband I am not always so understanding.  I shouldn't say that.  I start out understanding.  But after awhile I just lose the patience for the entire thing.  I know I sound like a complete bitch..  Ok I will own that name.  I can be a bitch.  When you have spent years working with someone on how to reduce the symptoms of something and they do everything other then the things that they have been told to do it is frustrating.  I guess I equate it to the same as weight loss.  We all know what we have had to do.  Both pre and post weight loss surgery.  Less calories + more activity = weight loss.  Easier said then done.  Right!  I get it.  But MY problem is that I have done something about my weight.  So when will my hubby do something about his illness?  The dr's have said.  Eat better, exercise (so important), do your full spectrum light, and get up and get busy and get the best sleep possible.  I know it is an illness.  I know he can not help it.  But he can help it not get as bad as it does.  I guess we are all a work in progress.  I need to realize that he is working on it now.

Well I need to get up and moving.  Work called and I get to go in for my extra day.  Overtime!

Have a great day everyone!
Heather

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