Undescribable

Feb 24, 2012

I can not find words to say how happy and excited I am. In 10 days I will embark on a journey that will be the best thing that I have ever done for myself. As a mom and wife I am so used to giving to everyone else, it feels almost weird to do something that is just for me (well it will be for everyone once I feel better and take an more active role in their lives). I am having some problem with folks that look at me and say "you're not that fat" "haven't you looked at other options" " do you think you're taking the easy way out" "I though you had to be bigger to qualify".....look I have to live in my skin, I am sorry I'm not BIGGER OK... I want to be healthy, happy, not ache and pain anymore. I do carry my weight well. When I tell people according to my BMI I am considered a little past obese, they look at me like I am from Mars...then of course the question is well how much do you weigh... (only the very brave will ask) when I tell them they are like , well you don't look like it. Well thanks I guess. I will stop with the pity party because everyone will not understand and bottom line - its my life not theirs. I have made up my mind and that is it. I want to look back to this point in a year or so and say way to go girlie - you've done it and don't you feel better. Ok I've had my bitchfest and guess what I'M STILL FRIGGIN EXCITED SO THERE :0p YIPPEE FOR MEEE!!!

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