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Hello self and All my OH friends!
I have been SUPER crazy busy with school and work. I'm living on coffee and still sleep deprieved. It's efecting my eating cause i'm always on the go and I find that I want to snack more often now. I am STOPPING that right NOW there will be NO snackin here today!!! Also My H2O intake SUCKS!! my urine is concentrated and my BP has been running low, SO i need to work on that. On the bright side:::
I fit some size 14-18's depending on make of the clothes (AND FEEL Super HOT!) I love feelin like  woman, and sexy but casual. I love having clothes that are lose on me and I don't have to struggle to hide my rolls. (though they are still there) I think i feel sexiest when I cross my legs (thank heaven for small joys) I wish i could say I have more energy and have been working out but my current school and work schedual do not allow for that right now BUT i'm almost done in about 10 weeks I will have completed my bachlor's Aug 21st!

what i will be working on is not snacking,if i need something I will drink water and i will buy celery sticks to chew, OH man And I have been daydreaming about peanut butter but i don't want to go there yet!!
i hope all is well and take care

Hi all
well here i am finally! I had a few SLOW weeks then BOOM i'm down 6 pounds again!! wow. AMAZING!! i love my RNY. I'm wearing size 18 and some large 16's. I feel great!!! I love it! i can cross my leg comfortably, i feel more confident. I am 25 pounds LESS than what my licence saya. I've never been under my licence weight!!! I have not thrown up in two weeks.

I think i can eat alot though, but i'm still losing. I'm eating healthy. I really feel great!
i hope all of you are doing good!

I had to weigh myself this morning b/c i'm crazy 244.6!!! I weighed myself like 5 times and it was the same number each time so did have a loss this week!!! Okay talk to you all later

Well besides having a very emotional night and crying off and on the entire night. i weigh myself today to find that I'm up 1 lb.  Well what can I do. I'm going to just keep chugging along. Drink water, plan for the gym 3 times this week and get in my protien. It will come off. On my behalf I just finished my monthly homone changes if you know what i mean. LOL. Things are good. Still having to eat my food slowly, and remind myself "WAIT, WAIT, chew really well" This school semester is almost over so that's a blessing and I will start my last semester in two weeks. I'm sooo excited I'm almost done with my BSN!! There is a rainbow after every storm!

Well another week down!! how exciting that time is passing by and the scale keeps moving! I love my RNY.
BUT have I had I pyschological issues? YES. i found myself at a child's birthday party this weekend. I knew no one and no one knew about my surgery. They had three different types of salads and the smell of the grill (hotdogs and hambugers) was permeating the air. It was too much much for my weak mind. I first tried small portions of the salad chewing them really well. They went down well. Well I had more salad and I got one cheese burger minus bun. Ok well it was going okay then i felt that terrible full feeling had to vomit! Yikes! Well after I did I came back out and continued to try to eat again. I vomited again then I did it AGAIN!!!. I have been under alot of stress Husband was admitted in the hospital thursday, mom had knee surery friday and of course I worked a night shift friday and went to this party with out a proper protien drink or meal in my pouch.
But why did I continue?
I made a appt with my psychiatrist for this week, so that will be good to see her. I will also plan to go to an OA meeting this week. That episode can not happen again. I will not let it. I am stronger and smarter than that.
Well I cleaned up my act after leaving the party and the followig day.
This surgery has been such a blessing. I feel absolutely wonderful. I feel more confident in myself, I love wearing clothes that fit me better. I feel healither in general.
On another positive note I lost 5.6 lbs this week. AMAZING!!! I'm in the 240's I'm 248. I don't remember being in the 240's Moving closer and closer to onederland!! I hope to be at or under 200 by the end of september. that is 5 months away which is 9.6 loss per month, over the next few months Approximately 2.5 lbs loss per week. I can do this! If not though it will not be the end  of the world small steps moving closer to a healthier lifestyle.
thanks for listening
take care

Time keeps moving... I'm going back to work tonight, I'm excited about that. it's been six weeks since i've been to work. This school semester is almost over. And my las semester will start shortly after. I feel desperate about food i can't eat but i'm slowly moving forward eating different things. I can eat tuna, salmon, beans, cheese, cottage cheese, rice cakes,  baby puree veggies. I was a able to eat roast beef too.
I great idea from julie here are my weight stats thus far
highest dec 07' =314
beginning 6mo= 298
meet surgeon =  293   (-5)
Begin liquid diet= 283 (-10)
surgery mar 09= 274   (-9)
today 4/27/09  = 254    (-20)

YEAH!! I made it to my first month. Thank god no complications. I keep trying to get in water and protein. i'm able to eat, cheese, rice cakes, beans, tuna, puree chicken, baby puree fruits. My pouch does not like acidic things yet. yuck! I found out the really hard way.  I have also had to really watch my fiber intake or else i'm stuck (literally) on the pot. YIKES
I really feel more normal and I have started exercising in the gym.  I lOSt this week too, I'm down 3 lbs to 256.6. HOORAY!! It feels so good. I love seeing the scale go down. I have few and rapid mood swings of depression. BUT for me personally very rare. I feel over all very good. I am insmaller clothes, I feel my larger clothes getting to too big! It's exciting.

I do have bad dreams of eating unhealthy foods, and ignoring my surgery. I don't want to fail. I want to make life long changes that make me a better and healthier person.

I had a tiny loss of 0.4 lb overall for the week. I won't freak till next week but I wanted to fill this out that jenstock1970 posted on the discussion board for me.
stallbreaker checklist:

• Are you tracking your food intake in a food journal? Is it on track?  YES, I think I'm mainly watching protein and calores are between 450 and 650
• Are you tracking every single calorie that passed your lips? (flavored water, vitamins, gum, single pieces of candy) Even if you aren't keeping track of calories, your body is! - Yes
• Are you eating too MANY calories? ??? I'm I?
• Are you eating too FEW calories? ?? not sure
• Are you taking in enough protein? 80-100g/day -- NO 45-58gm/day so far trying to get to 60 but must have at least 50
• Are the fats you're eating healthy (polyunsaturated and monounsaturated) - no
• Are you eating too many simple carbs (bread, pasta, potatoes, sugar, pasta, rice) -NONE
• Are you eating enough fruits and veggies? - Small amounts- very limited like an once if that a day
• Are you drinking enough water (water flushes fat toxins from our body)? - NO, I'm trying
• Are you grazing? - NO
• Are you eating the right quantity? Measuring and weighting foods? YES
• Are you eating on a schedule? - Not really but kind of
• Are you exercising hard enough? Long enough? Fast enough? - 4 weeks post op and mostly walking
• When's the last time you changed your exercise routine? (The body becomes efficient and doesn't burn as many calories after we've done the same thing for 4-6 weeks) - going hiking now started last week
• Have you added weight training to your workouts? (muscle burns more calories at rest) - not yet, can't
• Are you taking all your vitamins and supplements? yes
• Have you started taking any new medications that might promote weight gain? NO
• Have you taken your measurements (you might be losing inches even if the scale isn't moving)? Yes they have changed

YEAH!! I'm at week two!!! So exciting well at the beginning of my week i got bite by my cat so started antibiotics on friday. With the antibiotics i was told to slowly add alittle puree foods. SO so far i've had eggs and Fage yougurt. Which I totally hated fage yougurt prior to surgery but now it's delish! Today i went to a cafe with a friend and odered a lentil and veg soup, chewed the pieces as well as could I could only take three bites and then i was done. I got alot more fluid in yesterday, so that's good. I also bought gummy adult vitamins. 15 cal per serving. BUT soooo much better than children' vit and liquid adult centrum which is like vomit!  SO as for numbers I did check my weight mid week and was down to 263.3 BUt as of today I was 260!!! YEAH that is a total of 7.8 pounds down this week alone. I'm 40 pound down since dec.  and 14 down since surgery two weeks ago. this is so exciting. thank god for blessing me and giving me a second chance.
So i'm suppose to continue full liquids this week, with alittle puree for my antibiotic. Next week is puree diet. So cool. the puree diet will be intresting because the appeal of eating baby food is like eating poop. I think i can survive with soft and chewing REALLY WELL. i hope...

I know I should not check the scale daily but two days after monday's weigh in. I was down MORE. 263.2 !!! I have not been this light in OVER five years. Since the time I got pregnant with my son. What I noticed today is i'm over doing it in the AM, then suffering in the afternoon. I have to relax and try to not hurt myself. Drinking water has been better. I need to log now bye