heybiggirl
Get it Right Get it Tight!
Aug 13, 2008
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Delicious....hmm?
You can't tell but there was once watermelon mixed with cantaloupe & honey dew. I was tearing that fruit up!
I'm struggling with recording my meals. I need to start pre planning my meals with specific times otherwise I'm likely to forget! I did remember to eat every 2-3 hours, though. LOL
Let's see so far today:
*Honey Nut Chereos w/ vanilla soy milk
*5 bottle of water
*a whole lotta fruit
*baked fish
My pt wants me to drink at least 10 bottles of water 0.o wtf bia you trippin. How about 5 and say I drank 5?
I've been watching what I eat! Good for me
As a result of that and exersize I've lost 5 whole lbs! 25 more to go
My personal trainer wants me to start up the South Beach diet. I'll try that and see what's good.
Getting a personal trainer I hope will prove to be a wonderful decision. She is kicking my ass! My abs are STILL feeling our meeting four days ago.
Last week I took a yoga class for the first time with a friend from OH. Whew! Now THAT is a workout. I swear I slept better that night. The controlled breathing is very relaxing. My goal is to increase my flexibility and then, maybe one day...I'll be able to contort myself in a life size pretzel.
Delicious....hmm?
You can't tell but there was once watermelon mixed with cantaloupe & honey dew. I was tearing that fruit up!
I'm struggling with recording my meals. I need to start pre planning my meals with specific times otherwise I'm likely to forget! I did remember to eat every 2-3 hours, though. LOL
Let's see so far today:
*Honey Nut Chereos w/ vanilla soy milk
*5 bottle of water
*a whole lotta fruit
*baked fish
My pt wants me to drink at least 10 bottles of water 0.o wtf bia you trippin. How about 5 and say I drank 5?
I've been watching what I eat! Good for me
As a result of that and exersize I've lost 5 whole lbs! 25 more to go
My personal trainer wants me to start up the South Beach diet. I'll try that and see what's good.
Getting a personal trainer I hope will prove to be a wonderful decision. She is kicking my ass! My abs are STILL feeling our meeting four days ago.
Last week I took a yoga class for the first time with a friend from OH. Whew! Now THAT is a workout. I swear I slept better that night. The controlled breathing is very relaxing. My goal is to increase my flexibility and then, maybe one day...I'll be able to contort myself in a life size pretzel.
u woke?
Aug 12, 2008
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Break the Ice (The Black Is Out Tour Studio Mix) [Bonus] - Britney Spears
I just woke up a little after 8. Never have I been a "morning person".
I rolled over this morning picked up my phone and a new msg read, "u woke?" lol NO.
One of the 1st things I did when I went to kitchen was step on the scale. 2lbs lost. That's something to smile about considering that I haven't been exercizing. I'm on my way today to sign up for a gym membership.
Before I do that I'm going to make a Isagenix shake and eat a plum.
I started the meal replacement Isagenix shakes last week. And they're not delicious. The good thing is that I am getting used them....it's weird but I've gotten used to eating cottage cheese as well. I kinda like it.
Picture messages are my life second to OH. My best friend lives out of state and we used to take pictures of EVERYTHING...driving down the freeway, places we're going, what we're wearing, the hair shop (lol)...everything. I always send a song or a voice clip with them, too! She says it's like she gets a little adventure everytime she opens her phone. I can't wait to fix my phone so I we can swap pictures again. Also I can't have a audio-visual blog w/o the visuals!
I'm thinking about posting on youtube, though.
Anyway I'm still smiling about the 2lbs! I can't wait to start losing weight!
Break the Ice (The Black Is Out Tour Studio Mix) [Bonus] - Britney Spears
I just woke up a little after 8. Never have I been a "morning person".
I rolled over this morning picked up my phone and a new msg read, "u woke?" lol NO.
One of the 1st things I did when I went to kitchen was step on the scale. 2lbs lost. That's something to smile about considering that I haven't been exercizing. I'm on my way today to sign up for a gym membership.
Before I do that I'm going to make a Isagenix shake and eat a plum.
I started the meal replacement Isagenix shakes last week. And they're not delicious. The good thing is that I am getting used them....it's weird but I've gotten used to eating cottage cheese as well. I kinda like it.
Picture messages are my life second to OH. My best friend lives out of state and we used to take pictures of EVERYTHING...driving down the freeway, places we're going, what we're wearing, the hair shop (lol)...everything. I always send a song or a voice clip with them, too! She says it's like she gets a little adventure everytime she opens her phone. I can't wait to fix my phone so I we can swap pictures again. Also I can't have a audio-visual blog w/o the visuals!
I'm thinking about posting on youtube, though.
Anyway I'm still smiling about the 2lbs! I can't wait to start losing weight!
Rihanna Review
Aug 02, 2008
I'm crazy about this video 
At first when I heard Rihanna I didn't pay her any mind. I never bought Good Girl Gone Bad but when she came out with Umbrella, she got my attention. That song is still hot! After watching (and being intrigued by) Disturbia, I started finding some of her songs to listen to. I really like Rehab & The Last Time! I'm mad ppl keep comparing her to Beyonce. No one can replace B in my mind!! And ppl need to stop hating on Rihanna, too! She is not ugly. She just has unusual facial features which makes her really gorgeous. She'll be alright as long as she keeps black hair.
Do ya thing Rihanna!
At first when I heard Rihanna I didn't pay her any mind. I never bought Good Girl Gone Bad but when she came out with Umbrella, she got my attention. That song is still hot! After watching (and being intrigued by) Disturbia, I started finding some of her songs to listen to. I really like Rehab & The Last Time!
I'm mad ppl keep comparing her to Beyonce. No one can replace B in my mind!! And ppl need to stop hating on Rihanna, too! She is not ugly. She just has unusual facial features which makes her really gorgeous. She'll be alright as long as she keeps black hair. Do ya thing Rihanna!
lols
Aug 01, 2008
Aqua Arobics Anyone?
smdh
Jul 27, 2008
Ready, Steady....GO!
Jul 26, 2008
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First I gotta say that this song gets me so hype And I promise that's not the alcohol speaking for me. Hehe...I have had some drinks while at the Sky Bar. "What kind of girl do you think I R? The kind you meet in a bar"- Andre 3000 in Green Light
LOL I'm ready to go to bed.
Last week I completed my sleep apnea test which was a two night uncomfortable stay. My only complaint was that the very noisy air conditioning unit in the ceiling kept me up. They asked me to sleep on my back because "that's where you have the most sleep apnea"...according to the nurse.
The first night I was unamused by the fact that the brotha working the night shift was uninformitive. He left most of my questions unanswered. I'm one of these people that go into the office like, "What's this...and this?" "What does this do?" His elevated brow let me know he was just there to do his job and be out.
The cardiologist visit which, was also last week, was a breeze. Should I have said a breath...or two...or several..Hell, I was all out of breath! I was wired up to a computer and was made to power walk barefoot on a treadmill. LMAO that's what I get for wearing houseshoes everywhere. They elevated that damn treadmill to where I felt like my head was tilt all the way back.
I was lookin up at the ceiling by the time they finished raising that thing. I felt like I was walking up a wall or somethin.
The technician then had the nerve to axe me if I was alright. I just stared at her with blank expression.
Tonight I had a lot of fun at the Meet n Greet!! I met some new people. I'm hoping to definitely keep in touch with some people and go out again! I really don't get out enough and would
to change that.
I haven't the slightest idea to what is going on with my phone. I can't send pictures to my box. When I work this mess out I will update this entry with pictures of my office visits.
For all that kept asking, "What are you drinking?"
Malibu Punch
1 1/4 oz Malibu® coconut rum
fill with pineapple juice
1 squirt grenadine syrup
1 splash 7-Up® soda
all found at http://www.drinksmixer.com/ which gives nutrition facts
First I gotta say that this song gets me so hype And I promise that's not the alcohol speaking for me. Hehe...I have had some drinks while at the Sky Bar. "What kind of girl do you think I R? The kind you meet in a bar"- Andre 3000 in Green LightLOL I'm ready to go to bed.
Last week I completed my sleep apnea test which was a two night uncomfortable stay. My only complaint was that the very noisy air conditioning unit in the ceiling kept me up. They asked me to sleep on my back because "that's where you have the most sleep apnea"...according to the nurse.
The first night I was unamused by the fact that the brotha working the night shift was uninformitive. He left most of my questions unanswered. I'm one of these people that go into the office like, "What's this...and this?" "What does this do?" His elevated brow let me know he was just there to do his job and be out.
The cardiologist visit which, was also last week, was a breeze. Should I have said a breath...or two...or several..Hell, I was all out of breath! I was wired up to a computer and was made to power walk barefoot on a treadmill. LMAO that's what I get for wearing houseshoes everywhere. They elevated that damn treadmill to where I felt like my head was tilt all the way back.
I was lookin up at the ceiling by the time they finished raising that thing. I felt like I was walking up a wall or somethin.The technician then had the nerve to axe me if I was alright. I just stared at her with blank expression.
Tonight I had a lot of fun at the Meet n Greet!! I met some new people. I'm hoping to definitely keep in touch with some people and go out again! I really don't get out enough and would
to change that.I haven't the slightest idea to what is going on with my phone. I can't send pictures to my box. When I work this mess out I will update this entry with pictures of my office visits.
For all that kept asking, "What are you drinking?"
Malibu Punch
1 1/4 oz Malibu® coconut rum
fill with pineapple juice
1 squirt grenadine syrup
1 splash 7-Up® soda
all found at http://www.drinksmixer.com/ which gives nutrition facts
Been Waitin to Do Ma Thang
Jul 14, 2008
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I went to see my surgeon last week. My experience is told under Surgeon Testimonial to your left. The good doctor told me we can pick a date if I do the following 3 things first:
1) see a cardiologist
2) take a sleep apnea test
3) lose 10% of my body weight, which is around 30lbs
I don't think it's set in yet 
Growing Pains
Jul 09, 2008
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Growing Pains Lyrics
For me it's important to write about my feelings as well as experiences.
I decided to "fix myself" a while back. A part of this process and has been long and drawn out. Hard for an impatient person such as myself. Let's go ahead and be honest about the fact that I don't always finish what I start either.
I believe I have pinpointed the source of my depression. I fought several years and unfortunately well...this is the result. So it is time for a different approach. My being stubborn wouldn't let me admit until now that I need to seek aid of a psychologist. It all boils down to the fact that I cannot do this on my own.
My friends have definitely suffered behind all of this. I feel like I'm doing good and then all of a sudden..CRASH! After I've fallen I feel like I gotta isolate myself to "fix myself" again. I really don't like people seeing me like this.
My sleeping pattern is irregular. My headaches are constant. I don't feel like doing anything and I have a hard time finding motivation. I understand anxiety and depression coincide. More than likely that explains why I don't really like to go outside anymore.
It's not that I don't want to be around other people and get up and live life.
Sometimes I just can't.
I've been frustrated at myself being like this for too long. I'm tired of the severe ups and downs. I've acknowledged that I need help and I'm determined to do whatever it takes to feel better.
It's hard because I am doing this with little help and a lot of the time I feel so alone. I am alone because I push people away. Step by step I'm slowly getting the help I need. When I get overwhelmed, I get scared. And I'm not sure how to overcome that just yet.
Today I scheduled an appointment to see my psychologist. I plan to give to the doctor on paper just exactly how I'm feeling.
Tomorrow I am to see my weight loss surgeon for a consultation.
Growing Pains Lyrics
For me it's important to write about my feelings as well as experiences.
I decided to "fix myself" a while back. A part of this process and has been long and drawn out. Hard for an impatient person such as myself. Let's go ahead and be honest about the fact that I don't always finish what I start either.
I believe I have pinpointed the source of my depression. I fought several years and unfortunately well...this is the result. So it is time for a different approach. My being stubborn wouldn't let me admit until now that I need to seek aid of a psychologist. It all boils down to the fact that I cannot do this on my own.
My friends have definitely suffered behind all of this. I feel like I'm doing good and then all of a sudden..CRASH! After I've fallen I feel like I gotta isolate myself to "fix myself" again. I really don't like people seeing me like this.
My sleeping pattern is irregular. My headaches are constant. I don't feel like doing anything and I have a hard time finding motivation. I understand anxiety and depression coincide. More than likely that explains why I don't really like to go outside anymore.
It's not that I don't want to be around other people and get up and live life.
Sometimes I just can't.
I've been frustrated at myself being like this for too long. I'm tired of the severe ups and downs. I've acknowledged that I need help and I'm determined to do whatever it takes to feel better.
It's hard because I am doing this with little help and a lot of the time I feel so alone. I am alone because I push people away. Step by step I'm slowly getting the help I need. When I get overwhelmed, I get scared. And I'm not sure how to overcome that just yet.
Today I scheduled an appointment to see my psychologist. I plan to give to the doctor on paper just exactly how I'm feeling.
Tomorrow I am to see my weight loss surgeon for a consultation.
no pennies just thoughts
Jul 06, 2008
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I had a wonderful holiday. My nail broke at the airport coming home though :/ I'm so glad I went on vacation. To be honest, I really needed it. I was feeling down again.
But dont feel sorry for me cuz just like the airplane I road on, I'm taking off! On July 10th, I'm scheduled to see my surgeon for consultation. That's less than five days away! However, I still haven't filled out the online questionnaire like I was supposed to. I know I know.... I'm the biggest procrastinator in the world lol no pun.
I love obesityhelp.com for the most part people are responsive and real friendly. I really need that. And you know what else? I love fat people.
Even though the world discriminates against us, we should never forget where we come from and who we are as individuals.
I know the surgery will help enhance so many things about me. I'm also aware of the complete change I'm about to undergo. I'm not even going to lie about being scared of losing sight of myself. Having been big all of my life and then becoming just like everyone else....I will have known what it's like on both sides of the spectrum. One day I'll hopefully be able to say "I was once that girl". I have no idea how that will feel. How does it feel for anyone else losing weight?
Someone once told me he only dated BBWs. When I asked why, he explained that have better personalities and generally carry ourselves better than a skinny broad. I told him it's because we have to! All my life I've had to be better at everything I do because I have 3 strikes against me. Who else feels the same way?
My next step is to sit for my consultation. After that we shall see if I am to do a sleep apnea test and or lose some weight before surgery. Cross fingers folks- I'm one more step closer!
Mo'Nique paved the way for us
Jun 27, 2008
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I won't put my pictures up on this website for personal reasons. That's why I have a picture of pretty Ms. Mo'Nique up. I found out anyone that has your email address can find you on this site.
However, I am willing to cam with any of you out there who possess a webcam. Message me and let me know.
Mo'Nique is really doing her thing. She inspired me in so many ways. Especially when she danced on the BET Awards show. (Shown below)
*update:
judging only from what I've read so far, I dont really
think so many people on this website are proud of being BBW. I see so many people on OH that just can't weight to be skinny. That's awesome for them but I'm really afraid of losing my shape entirely, ya know?
I would prefer not to have a shapless body when I get done losing all of my excess body weight. I want to keep some booty thank you. I wonder if anyone else feels that way.
