July 6th 2009

Jul 06, 2009

aye dios mio..  I cant even belive Im having this done next week.. Im so, so scared
Im anxious about when I go in.. Im scared I might have an anxiety attack or something.. Im scared to wake up from anesthesia and have an anxiety attack.. Im scared I might wake up starving.. Im scared I might have a leak.. Im just freaking scared..
I went to great escapes this weekend.. and I got the huge tube for the Tornado.. by the time I climbed the stairs to the top I really thought I was going to pass out.. I mean literally.. my daughter got a bit scared.. she said I looked really pale.. I tried to get a hold of it.. because I didnt want to freak out.. but I couldnt even catch my breath.. and really didnt catch it until prob 3 minutes after the ride was over..  oh I really dont care how scared I am, I am definetly having this surgery.. I dont want to be  out of breath just by climbing up stairs.. I want to be able to enjoy myself with my kids..

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