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I have been sick the last few days and have been in such a funk. After talking to my support group therapist on Wednesday I decided I may need more help than I want to admit. Acting "as if" everything is fine and wonderful is quite exhausting. For the last month I have been trying to "fake it til I make it" and it has not gotten any easier. I have such feelings of inadequacey, frustration and self loathing. It all centers on food! My issues with food. I cannot have junk in my house. Last week, I bought a box of healthy choice fudgesicles and binged on those for 4 days til they were GONE. I want to be able to have a yummy treat in the house and not feel compelled to eat it all in one sitting. I spoke to my PCP, and got put back on prozac. I also got some names of therapists who specialize in eating d/o. I am waiting for my auth letter from ins to come in the mail so I can set up my first appt. It's a good thing I had a cold this week, b/c I called off at work and did not have to deal with post Halloween candy. I know I won't be able to avoid the onslaught of junk food that comes with the rest of the holiday season. So I think I have started the best plan to deal with this. And yeah, I lost 1# while I was sick.
Whooppee! I know, sarcasm is not helpful. I think I'll go to mass tonight and say an extra rosary for thanksgiving. Afterall I could still be holding steady on the plateau.
Think positive, think positive, THINK POSITIVE!!!!!
October 31, 2007
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October 27, 2005
Oct 27, 2007
About time too. It is so nerve wracking when you know you are doing everything right, and still the scale won't move. Have been researching emotional eating. Reading a really good book called Life is Hard, Food is Easy. Still have trouble with "snacking" always in the evening too. Oh yet another thing to work on.
I also PB'd twice once at work, trying to eat too fast and again at home eating too fast again. I need to start timing myself and get 30-60 seconds between bites to allow the food to clear the esophagus. This is rather hard to do when I am SO hungry. I know whine whine.
October 25, 2007
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October 24, 2007
Oct 24, 2007
The weather was just gorgeous. This is a list of everything I did today:
1) mowed the lawn
2) washed the car inside and out
3) took Stanzie walking in the Arboretum in Memorial Park
4) WENT ROLLERBLADING at the picnic park
WooHOO!!! I haven't been rollerblading in like 6-7 years! What FUN! And Stanzie liked it too! She was actually able to keep up with me. The fun doesn't stop there.
5) I'm meeting a friend to go walking tonight.
I called my doctor's office and cancelled my appt for tomorrow because I don't need a forth fill, I have proper restriction. The scale may not be moving for me this week, but the energy I have today should be bottled and savored like a fabulous French wine. LIFE IS GOOD!
