WOW moment........random thoughts
Apr 16, 2007
I'm having difficulty getting rid of all my clothes tho. I have a trunk that I put them in as I grow out of them. I cannot bring myself to get rid of them out of "that" fear of gaining back and not having clothes. Every time in the past I have lost weight I gained it PLUS more back. I am really freaking out over this! Anyone else out there felt this way??? How did you finally get rid of the clothes???
It's been a while so here is my surgery story
Jan 30, 2007
I was scheduled for surgery December 26th at 7:30am. I was at the hospital before 6am. My husband and my dear sweet daughter age 12 were with me. On the way to the hospital which was a good 45 minute drive I started feeling so sick to my stomach. I said gosh my nerves are getting the best of me. When we got there the patient registration was not open yet so we were waiting in the lobby of the hospital. I felt it coming.......I had to run outside and throw up. I got registered and had to find the bathroom quickly. I really was a nervous wreck so I thought. We were all waiting in the same day surgery lounge and the nurse came for me. I hugged and kissed my husband and daughter and told them I love them...when I walked out of their sight I began to cry. Walked in the O/R holding area and still crying. My nurse got me ready to go and the anasthesiologist(sp) came to talk to me. I asked him to please pull the curtain closed and go out because I was going to be sick. AT that point I could not stop throwing up. It was so much I could not stop. I had nothing in my system so it was bile. Dr. Colquitt was outside my curtain and heard how sick I was. He came in when I was finished and told me he could not do the surgery on me due to my throwing up like that. I tried to tell him I was just nervous but he said he had never seen anyone throw up that much bile being nervous. He agreed to hold off one day and do it the next day. He admitted me to the hospital and ordred xrays of my intestines. Everything seemed ok and the next day I was back in the O/R holding area....feeling sick again, mind you I had been feeling fine since noon or so the day before...I vowed not to start again. I did not throw up this time but begged the anasthesiologist to give me something to calm my nerves...she obliged and thats the last thing I remember until waking up in recovery in major pain! I was given some pain meds and fell back asleep. I was taken to ICU for the rest of the evening and night. I understand this is normal for all his patients. I was up walking a few hours later. The next day I was moved to a regular room. I figured out the day I was leaving I had been dumping on the jello each time they brought it to me. I had not idea until it finally dawned on me..I get sick each time I eat jello. I was having to get phenegran suppositories each time I ate....they were bringing me regular jello not sugar free.. I found out early I dump on sugar and WILL NOT be trying it anytime in the future. I hated that feeling. I would start sweating and had to have a cold cloth on me and I would be so sick at my stomach! ughhhhh!!! I finally left the hospital on Friday afternoon. I was glad to be home but I felt scared...I felt like I needed to be at the hospital so they could take care of me. My family was amazing tho...they all took care of me and I was just fine.... Ok this was my surgery experience..so my actual surgery date was 12-27-07. I have lost 33 pounds but have been stuck here for a couple weeks. That is nerve wracking!! Ok more later...have a great day!
Nervous...Scared...not sure what it is!
Dec 04, 2006
Smoke Free since May 15, 2006!!!!
I got a date!!
Nov 06, 2006
Well today I went to Dr. Colquitts office and saw Jeannie. She gave me my date! December 26th. Merry Christmas to me!!!!!!!!! I am so happy and nervous at the same time. I got real down tonight for a bit because I was trying to get ready for work and my clothes are just not fitting me. I have one pair of work pants that will fit and my shirts are so uncomfortable its crazy! I tried telling myself just a couple more months and it will be ok....but in the meantime its just depressing! Oh well enough sad stuff!! My date like I said is the day after Christmas...that is also my mother and fathers wedding anniversary. My mother passed away 2 years ago so I'm not sure yet on the feelings I have about the date. Right now I just need to concentrate on what I need to do and what I need to buy and all of that kind of stuff. Any suggestions on preparing for my day PLEASE post them to me!!
Feeling really Fat :(
Nov 03, 2006
I was approved by UHC on 10.27.06! Yay me! I still have to go for my physc evaluation Monday. I'm not too worried about this....heck I dont think I'm crazy! :) I am kinda nervous about the whole thing though. I keep thinking about my children and what it would do to them IF something happened to me during surgery. At the rate I'm going I wont make it to grandchildren. I am so sick of worrying about my sugar and did I take all my meds for the day. It gets so tiring worrying about medication all the time. I will pray for strength and the Lord will bless me with the strength to get through this. God is GOOD!!