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. A real life!!!! For me, that means losing this padding that surrounds me. I don't need it's "protection" anymore. Idon't want another year to pass by, and wonder what I've done. 2007 is going to be MY year !!!! I' m ready for a change.
OVER THE YEARS , NOT ONLY HAVE I ALLOWED OTHERS TO HURT ME OVER AND OVER, BUT I HAVE HURT MYSELF !!! I BELIEVE FOOD IS "MY DRUG OF CHOICE". I DON'T DRINK OR SMOKE OR USE STREET DRUGS, BUT FOOD IS MY ADDICTION. IT USED TO BE MY FRIEND - IF I WAS HAPPY, SAD, MAD BORED,LONELY - I COULD COUNT ON MY FRIEND FOOD TO BE AROUND. I'VE FOUND THAT I'VE USED MY WEIGHT AS A SHIELD FROM THE WORLD. I DON'T KNOW IF ANYONE CAN RELATE , BUT BEING THIS HEAVY HAS MADE ME INVISIBLE. IT'S HARD TO EXPLAIN (EVEN TO MYSELF). ALTHOUGH I AM LONELY AND DEPRESSED...IT'S SAFE!
I BELIEVE I AM READY TO CHANGE. I REALIZE LIFE IS PASSING ME BY.....AND I WANT TO LIVE IT!!!!!!!!
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