hollysmiles2001
Head Hunger is a B****!!!
Feb 09, 2010
Time for the truth to be told! Well as you can see from the title, I've been struggling with head hunger. I find myself wondering into the kitchen looking for something to munch on, knowing I'm not even hungry!! I'm finding it much more difficult now and I wish I could turn off the switch. When it first started, I was able to divert my focus to other things.......but it's not so easy anymore. I find myself testing my pouch knowing darn well that if I can't break that deadly cycle, it's going to hurt me in the long run. Things were been good up until I hit the 3 month post-op mark and now I keep asking myself, am I always going to be the fat, funny girl??? It's frustrating as hell!!!!! I know I'm losing weight because I'm getting compliments and my clothes are baggy, but I still can't wrap my head around that concept! I knew starting this journey that it wasn't going to be easy and I thought I was prepared, but I was wrong.
Another thing I noticed is how my "attitude" changes when my weight loss slows. I finally admitted to myself that my mood swings are directly related to the scale. I know, I know........I need to step away from the scale but I can't help myself some days. I'm getting familiar with my weight loss pattern and know at certain times of the month I won't lose a pound. That's been my main excuse for continually stepping on the scale.....so I could become familiar with how my body is reacting.
One thing I'm working on is putting myself first and as a parent, I'm sure others can relate to how difficult that can be especially when you have young children. I was never one to put myself first and now I have to find a way to accomplish that goal. I don't have any other choice, I don't want to be a failure.
