hope24
Less than 2 weeks till surgery
May 23, 2010
Well, it is just under two weeks before my surgery date. I am currently alternating between understanding what it is I am understanding and being happy about it, and being terrified. I don't know maybe the negative feelings are happening more when it is later in the day and the pain is getting to me. I know that feeling afraid and second guessing yourself are natural in this situation, but nonetheless bothersome. I know somewhere inside that this is normal and I am ready for a change in my life, FINALLY. I waited too many years to try and live life. I have sat on the sidelines waiting for things to feel better, or get better or something. Then it just gets bad enough one day, that you have to keep your head in the sand with the rest of you quickly following, or make a change. I have read about some of the ladies and gentlemen here who have taken that Huge step and changed their lives for the better and insist that they would do it again in a minute. So partly in faith, and partly because I want to hold my grand baby's and go for a walk, and do something with my girls, I will do this thing! I will do everything I can to make it work, and to succeed and not be a wasted effort. I have met one very sweet friend on OH who I love and appreciate so very much. She keeps me going in the right direction. Thank you! I would like to have other friends on OH, if you can stand one more friend, add me to that friends list. Support and another's insight go a long way for me at least.
