1 month away!!!!

Apr 03, 2011

OMG!! I'm nervous, I'm scared, I'm flipping out. I don't know what to do. I've been going out trying to buy any and everything to accommodate my new lifestyle I'm going to have, but don't know what to buy. I don't know if I should buy new little tiny spoons or baby spoons or just stick with the spoons I have. I don't know if I should buy smaller dishes or 4oz. cups or smaller clothes or special food. I'm just going crazy. I usually buy things to comfort myself, but this time, I don't know what to buy to comfort me. I'm going to the walmart every other weekend looking for God knowS what. I really want this surgery but I'm scared of being put to sleep. Also, I have to get the IVC filter put in on the 19th of this month. I have to have a twilight for that. I think I'll be ok with that since I had to have that to have the upper endoscopy, but to be fully under makes me nervous. I hate not knowing what is going on around me. Like what do they see inside my body during the surgery, or what do they talk about. I wonder if the room will look scary when I get in there. I really hope they can give me something to make me calm when I go in. I tell you one thing, the moment I wake up, I'm going to have a huge smile on my face. I'll be so happy to know I did it and I am safe and life can only get better afterwards. Sorry for my rant, but i'm SCARED!!!!!

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