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Since childhood, my weight has been what I consider average to "slightly" above average. Maybe I was just taller and bigger boned? Who knows... The major weight problems started with my first pregnancy 20 years ago, and YoYo'd up and down since then with each pregnancy!! (10 pregnancies!! 5 babies and 5 miscarriages)..
My life is pretty chaotic!! Never seems to slow down! Have lived in many different places (San Francisco, Miami, Hong Kong, Tokyo, Spain, Guatemala, Honduras....). Seems like we're always on the move. And I tend to eat more when I'm stressed, sort of feeding a need to feel comforted and relaxed I guess...
After the last baby (#5) four years ago, I did the Body for Life diet and exercise plan. Lost a lot of weight, felt great, energetic, confident, etc... (see pictures!!).. But, then, about 2 years ago, after quite a few major issues at the same time, I just quit doing BFL, and started eating too much, drinking too much and stopped exercising!!
Here's just a hint of what happened 2 years ago:
Husband lost job (int'l banker) whilst living in other country, got new job in yet ANOTHER country, pulled kids out of old school to put into new school in new country, went to California to visit family for Christmas, decided to take advantage of the real estate bubble before it popped and sold old house and bought newer bigger house!! Whilst in California for Christmas vacation, mom got very sick, emergency, hospital, ICU, died (left me heart broken).... Planned funeral, dealt with her estate, sisters fighting, family feuds, all that crap!! Then kids start school in new country, husband starts new job, I start new life all over. Say bye to old friends, pack up house, move, need to make new friends, unpack, learn the city, safety concerns, etc...
In the meantime, hardly seeing my DH because he's working and so much at the new job!! Feeling stressed and depressed all at once!!
That's pretty much it for now. When I have more time, I'll update this...
