I'm 1 yr old! Well, my pouchie is!
Nov 30, 2009So, today's the day....my very 1st surgiversary! I wanted to take the time to post, so that I can look back on this and know what I was thinking, feeling, etc.
I've said it so many times, but...I just feel so blessed! Before surgery, when I was so sick, I used to wonder why God was punishing me--giving me so much pain and dispair. But, now....175ish lbs lighter, I finally know why I had to withstand all that pain. I know I had to do it to prove to myself that I was sooooo much stronger than I thought. But, also...I needed to endure all the pain, so that I could know how wonderful this truly is. Had I never known the pain, I would not know the pleasure and joy I feel now!
My whole life has changed...I have changed. It's not just the way I look. It's so much more! I don't worry nearly as much as I used to. I was always worried about how far I had to walk, would a restaurant have tables becauae I wouldn't fit in a booth, what kind of people would be there, would i feel out of place, etc....
I just don't think about all that stuff now. Instead, I think about what kind of fun I am going to have, or the things I need to get done--I think about doing, rather than not doing, being rather than not being. It just blows my mind!
I am soooooooo grateful! I feel so lucky! I will NOT waste this chance....this amazing miracle that God has brought into my life!
Life is soooo sweet! =) (Even without sugar!LOL)
May 21, 2008