IAMASWEETHEART44
Thank you for reading my story.
I am married to a wonderful man and have 3 wonderful sons,whom are my reason for living.
I have always been the big girl all my cousins came in all sizes but i was still the biggest.
I remember in like 6th grade i set in a chair and it broke and some of the kids had a good time at my expense.
I had friends and even boyfriends but my weight cause me to make some bad choices in life, my high school pics showed were i lost some and gained it back and i think man if i would have knew then what i know now i graduated weighing in at about 180pounds.Then i fell in love and yes got pregnant and here came a big weight gain i weighed 230 when i had Joey oh yell his daddy decided he was to young to be a daddy and offered me money for an abortion but 24.5 years later Joey is here with me and my big strong protector.I spent 6.5 years as a single mom.Then out of no where came my hubby Neil i swear he is heaven sent he took me my fat and all and by this time i was up to 260-270 and with a child.We have been married 16.5yrs and his family is great they are thin and beautiful but they treat me good.We had Andy he is such a love there is none sweeter.15mths later here comes my Lucas 10.6 pounds gourgeus fat baby he is my go getter afraid of nothing.i had gained again. i now weigh over 300 pounds but i keep going life is good.so fast foward 8 years comes my breast cancer scare they say suspious but beign..wheeeeeeww.I keep on going and gaining.3 years ago we went to kings island and i realized damn im huge i cant ride.so i decided to try gastric bypass i had tryed everything including hypnosis.Went thru testing then my find out my husbands insurance had a exclusion in it.But the good thing was my heart was good but i had sleep apnea.So the national guard now can buy tricare insurance hooray.I can try again and was approved have done the testing and got my date.
So now maybe i can walk again without falling and can go shopping in stores that dont have wheelie carts.
Drive my suv(if i can afford the gas)..and go places with my dh and kids im so afarid i will embarrass them with my weight.They love me and dont care that im bigg.im the one with the issues.
So Monday Feb 18th at 9:30is my date .
Im so happy but yet so scared.
My dh says the doc says you only have 3-5 yrs but the surgery will change that but what if something happens and i dont come home.But everyone says think positive its the new beginning for me.i tell my family(cuzs included )your goin find out i always the pretty one..lol
you know my gmal was over 450 and last year i lost an aunt whom they said needed the surgery.
Im so thankful for the friends i have made on this site the wisdom they posess,the compassion they give.
So wish me luck.........
