What a diffrence 2 years makes

Mar 02, 2010

On Feb 18th i celebrated the second anniversary of my weight loss surgery.
It has been an incredible journery so far,and i still have a long way to go.
I have lost a total of 269 pounds.Weight loss has gotten alot slower.But it happens still.I have my life back and no diabetes...I have good days and bad with my eating,but i try to do the best i can with the tool i have been given..I rode a roller coaster this summer,and going on vacation in a few weeks on a plane to Arizona.
I have started college, became a support group leader through OH.My life goes nonstop...
Sometimes i get so busy that i forget to eat and then i suffer because i get bad gas and hiccups..
That is the only side effect from my surgery that is hard to deal with THE GAS..Its horrible,but Beano helps alot.
I have grown to love food in a whole new way,i love the spices and flavor.
The main thing is food no longer controls my life,its still a part of it.
But i dont wake up thinking about it instead its like wonder what i can find to do today.
I love buying new clothes and for the first time in my life i feel sexy and now when i see a mirror i DONT run from it, i actually stop and look in it and smile at myself and say not bad,but i now im still under construction or rentovation..
There was some big changes this year,i almost lost my husband because he couldnt handle my weight loss.But thanks to some advice from a good friend we have worked it all out and our realtionship is awesome.
My children love the fact we can do things as a family..
I thank God and Dr.Sonnastine for giving me my life back..I also thank my husband who reenlisted so that i could have the surgery.
Everyday is an adventure for me and im livin my life in the fast lane..HUGGS

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Life changes

Jun 02, 2009

It has been awhile since i posted life has had many changes.
I am 15 months out from my rny and i went from 526 to 287  in Feb of 09 i had a complete hysterectomy and he took everything and that included my excess skin from my stomach which weighed 30 pounds.
I had a scare when they thought my husband had a heart attack he didnt but it gave him the pre warning and they found a blockage and he now has a stint,but is okay.
They thought my 25 year old son had a heart attack but he has anxiety attacks and my youngest has had some clotting disorders with his blood.But right now they are all well.
This past week i lost my aunt who was like my second mom she was my confidant when i was growing up i could always go to her for anything,her liver quit working and i keep telling myself she isnt suffering anymore,but sunday while in Indy i waited  to here there you are hi sweetheart,but i didnt.
Yesterday my youngest graduated 8th grade and today my oldest turned 26.
Life is amazing i can drive walk ,run and dance and going thru walmart tonite i did hopscotch to prove i could.lol
I got a pink and white schwinn bicycle and road the first time in 18 years.
I can now wear a 18/20 shirt (but i still want it bigger) and a 22 /24 jeans and i am so happy.
I fit in places i never could and do things that i stand back and cry afterwards.
My eating is off i forget to.lol
But i am working on it the scales have stopped moving but i know im losing inches cause my clothes get bigger everyday.
Thanks to Dr.Sonnastine and Dr.Pavelka my life is better because of you fellows and thank you to my family and my oh family.love and huggs



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Now i see

Jan 12, 2009

I set here watching whats eating gilbert grape..
I cry just thinking about what i put my boys thru.
I was that big, were they truly embarrassed by me and just didnt let me know?
When she says i didnt mean to get this way.omg how many times did i say that?
When she says to the girl ive not always been like this..how many times did i say that?...
Then i think if i didnt have the surgery it could have been me leaving my boys....
Again im am thankful to Dr.Sonnastine and to my dh for re enlisting so i could have the surgery ..
I have always been embarrassed for my boys and my dh to be seen with me,not so much now but i know they are proud of me even though im still the big girl,i feel better and im not embarrassed so neither are they...
If you have never watched this movie.watch it

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A new year and a new life

Jan 01, 2009

Well 2008 was exciting and sad for me.
I gained a new lease on life and thanks to my hero (Dr.Sonnastine) ive enjoyed my life again.
I can walk and breathe at the same time ,i can go up and down the stairs to do the laundry go shopping forever.lol
Ive also lost 3 very important people in my life each with diffrent values.My cousin Brian who like me put his family first and even though he was ill he laughed and made everyone laugh.Our nephew Matt who had everything going for him,yet for some reason unknown to us he took his life.
My cousin Keith(but he called me aunt lisa) Keith had nothing yet had everything,he loved life and everyone in his, he was a redneck country boy who when he laughed you forgot all your issues and laughed with him yet when he cried it tore your heart out,he wore his heart on his sleeve,
From these 3 i now know to live today like its your last and love everyone wether they love you or not and material things and money mean nothing if you dont have love.
So im telling all you in my life and future that i love you and lets make 2009 all about family and friends and ourselves.
Ive also learned everyone like my sils did care about me,it was me i was so ashamed of myself that i kept everyone away.
This year im gonna get my sexy back.lol(i dont think i had it in the first place).
Im teaching my family to enjoy life and food without the calories and fat and it may hurt to exercise but after awhile it feels good .
I wonna thank you all for being my friends and hopefully becoming my family.
Love and huggs and Happy new year lets make it our year..
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Another milestone for me..

Nov 05, 2008

Okay im going to admit this is alittle goofy but in the vehicle yesterday i decided to see if i could put my feet on the dash..
Geuss what i can ,it is stupid but this time last year i couldnt reach my own behind....
I have been busy lately with funerals and the boys school and their dances and etc,but ive been noticing i reach to hold my dhs hand alot more.
Before i was embarrased for him (not me).
So at the funeral i held on tight to him,and my dad says to me Nancy Elizabeth(my given name and i only hear it when im in trouble) and i said yes dad and he says its really sweet seeing you in love..Im like what are you talking about(im thinking alheimers) he said its the first time in years ive seen you hold your husbands hand..
I said well dad you know i have a thing for a man in uniform and he has his on today..He laughs and walks away but i got thinking he is right im not very affectionate in public til now,i geuss im no longer embarrased for him...It made me feel so blessed that he has stuck by me the last 17.5 yrs..
We are going out with adult friends Sat and then a weekend get away with friends on 12.13......
It is so nice being free to walk and breathe on my own.
We have had 2 losses lately and the last one tore my heart out he was my buddy and he will be missed so much i am so worried about his mama she is beside herself and also matts parents.
As i was cuttin Joeys hair this morning i told him how much i love him and im so proud of him, he has low self esteem and he thinks he is fat and ugly.not
he is 5"11 and a half and weighs 235,with his hair cut he looks like a ufc wrestler..
Ive told the other 2 boys also they are good kids and i love them alot.
The 3 boys and my dh are my cheerleaders.
At the store i ran into a old friend who wouldnt speak cause she didnt reconize me..i love it
I hope everyone is doing well ive went under the 350 mark which is great for me and ive decided only to get on the scales once a week so friday is my day..
I have that song in my head and cant get it out
I feel good like i knew that i would////////////////////



cold

Oct 19, 2008

Okay everyone said after the surgery they get cold.
Ive been thinking yeah right.
Til now i cant beleive im cold,i usually never wear a jacket or socks hell sometimes no shoes even when its snowing.
Its oct and im hunting socks and jackets and quilts my familys laughin and sayin are you cold mom...
Ill beleive you all from now on.
Nothings changing here, money doesnt go as far.
Got the pool estimate hubby has decided he wants a hottub.Im all for that til this summer when im able to get in a pool then i be yelling we should have got the damn pool.
Hubby put the fireplace insert in tonite its been in the garage for 3 years , it works i can feel the heat clear up stairs might save us a few bucks.
Took the boys to a haunted house they went in and i set in the suv with Andys girlfriend..I was afraid someone would make me fall and then id have to whoop butt..We had a nice coversation,she is beautiful and big chested ,well she thinks she is fat excuse me who do you think your sitting next to?
I hold the crown in the fat catergory and she says im sorry.
But Andy says her family calls her fat..not she has alittle muffin top.but damn my grandparents used to call that healthy.'
My weight is still dropping slowly but i can tell with the inches,everytime i drink a protein shake i get flushed and lightheaded so trying to get my protein in food.
Im loving being able to just go its wonderful.
Hubby is trying to quit smoking i think we are gonna kill each other with my hormones and his withdrawls.lol
My kids just shake their heads and laugh.
I wish you all well its time to go to bed i gotta study college intr exam wednesday and ive been out of school 27 yrs..
love ya all


Life is changing

Oct 06, 2008

Hello all
This week we lost our 21 yr old nephew a really good kid who seemed to have everything going for him.
Wonderful personality very handsome and intelligent athletic and etc.But something was wrong and he took his life....My dh ask me will our boys do that and i told him i hope not i know they understand they can come to us with anything and not be judged..
I tell my boys the only expectations i have for you is that you finish your education and you remain a gentleman..
I dont care if they are sports hero or popular or etc..
Arrangements for him our Wenesday .
I got to see Bucky Covingtton this Saturday he is really awesome.
Heidi newfeild was there also she sang the song shame shame,,,it goes knocked up shame shame gonna ruin the family name i looked at my cousin and said hey thats are song thought she was gonna whoop me.lol
The place was a mad house my feet hurt so i took my shoes off had white socks on and one of the kids ask me to open their bottle of big red well it exploded crap i had red all over my lite colored shirt and my white socks,anyways someone stepped on my toe and torn my toenail so my hubby says are you ready to go?
Hell yeah or im gonna hurt somebody,so anyways were coming out of an alley and everyone is looking at us and a few ask if im alright uuhhhyell.
I run into a friend and she comes running asking if im alright wtf i ask her and she steps back and says there is red on your shirt and socks and hands and your face is blood red and your carring your shoes(i always threaten to take my shoes and whoop a--).I look at my self and bust out laughing they all thought i had been in a fight...
I have discovered i still dont like crowds.
But i hadnt been to this fair in about 7 yrs so i walked through it and it felt good.
I was hangin out and set down by the booths and dummy me set by the corn dog booth,cooton candy and carmel apples   ooohhhh the smell was wonderful.
But i didnt have the urge to eat any of it ,i just enjoyed the smells..
Ive learned when im in a bad mood to turn the stereo up and sing(off key of course)..
One of the neighborhood kids aask my son when they got off the bus and heard it is your mom in a bad mood?lol
Maybe his mom does the same thing..lol
Hope everyone is doing good..


My senses are out of wack

Sep 23, 2008

I am so strange i smell the scent of chocolate and its driving me nuts..
My sinuses are horrible right now so maybe thats it or ive got a m and m stuck up my nose.lol
My taste buds are off and nothing taste good right now,which is agood thing though.
everything is going good we are going to the free concerts to see tracey lawrence,joe nichols and randy travis this weekend im so excited..
My drama ismy 16 yr old and his 15 year old gfriend love them and we had the talk,oh mom we want to wait..
Wrong i find an email from her where she ask a friend to get them condoms she says she is ready..OMG
i blew a fuse her mom wont talk to me(dont know why)she has never said boo to us.so its up to me to fix this...
I told them they will never be alone they go to diffrent schools .so its just fridays and saturdays and they are with us.
I was a wild teenager and a single parent and i want so much more for them any suggestions?
Well better get cleaning we have company coming this weekend.....
love and huggs to you all


7 months

Sep 18, 2008

Well to start my baby turned 15 today,im offically turning old now.lol
Anyway today is my 7month rebirth day and im feeling wonderful and can do most everything i set out to do..
Ive lsot 157 pounds and lots of inches.
I wish i would have took measurements..
I love when i run into people i havent seen in along time and they dont reconize me(til i open my big mouth).
Its a wonderful feeling to find my hubby staring at me,and my dad sometimes i find him staring and ill say what and he says im so happy for you and there are tears in his eyes and he tells me when he looks at me now he ses his older sister,my dad has always calledme lulu (after the heavy woman on hee haw) now he says he cant do that anymore..
Its nice to be free again thank you dr.Sonnastine (omg he gets more handsome everytime isee him)..But everynight my family and i give our thanks to you and how you have enriched our lives..We love you ..
We lost our pool and gazebo and trampoline during the big windstorm..Its all covered by our homeowners insu.
Neil loves his being full time military and he looks good in his uniform.lol
The boys are doing great in school,Andy is head over heels in love and she is a sweetie.
Lucas is getting so tall and slimmer(my lifestyle change is working for the whole family).
Joeys 71" chevy chevelle is looking good he almost has it finished i cant wait to drive it.....
But life is good right now and i wanted to share with everyone...


They grow up

Jun 17, 2008

I am getting old;;;
My oldest son(joey) turned 25 on june 2nd.
My middle son (andy)turns 16 on the 28th of june
The funny thing is i dont feel it, since the surgery
I feel 95% better i go everywhere now ive lost 127 pounds and found the feminine side of me i thought i had lost,i look in the mirror now,i used to run from them and cameras(okay waddled).
Im worried because my legs still dont work real well when i stand up im like a toddler learning to walk.i try to walk more everyday but i still get the same effect.
My cousin Kevin had the surgery in 98 or 99 and he looks like the walking dead.
ive seen this boy eat and knew something was wrong, he got really sick last weekend and they found out he had graves disease,he has a hyperthyroid which is why he was so skinny.
The family kept telling me lisa dont let yourself look like kevin,well now the boy has a reason to look like he did it wasnt his fault..
But anyways i went to a cookout this weekend and got some many compliments on how good i looked for awhile i felt like miss america.
The scales have stayed in the same place for the last 2 weeks but my clothes are still getting bigger.
So ill take it i think im retaining water though.
I kn ow 1 thing i give thanks to God and DR.Sonnastine for giving me my life back i enjoy life so much i can breathe ...
to everyone beginning there journeys good luck.
to the post ops take care


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aurora, IN
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02/18/2008
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Jul 31, 2007
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