Hi Diane,
Just wanted to tell you that the bashing that is going on on the message board is not fair. You mentioned in the beginning of your post that you were venting. I know that it has to be frustrating not being approved and knowing that you are miserable. I have been there, though my wait for approval was not long, and I thank God everyday for that. I had looked into Vocational Rehab, they will pay for surgery, though it's a long process, may something you could look into if you haven't already. Just know that there are a few of us that will support you honey and not bash you! Keep your chin up and e-mail me if you wanna chat. I'm here to listen, good bad or indifferent. God Bless.!! XOXO Tammy