IowaLaura

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I am home alone, waiting for the magnesium citrate to kick in, wondering if I should be afraid or not.  This is such a huge decision.  Do I want to be on a diet the rest of my life?  I love food - planning it, cooking it, eating it, sharing it.  What if I regret this later?  There is no going back. I visit the web site several times a day, looking at the before and after photos hoping to find myself somewhere on these pages – the self I want to be. I read your blogs and postings looking for answers and not finding them.  I read all of the information and statistics waiting for someone to tell me the right thing to do - To eliminate the doubts and fears.  It doesn't happen.  I know in my heart this is what I need to do.  I want to be healthy and able to play again.  I want to smile and laugh on the inside and not just on the outside.  I can do this - It is going to be hard but I know I can.  I just HAVE TO.  I can't fail again and survivie it.  I must make this happen at all costs.