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I year Update -142 lbs!!!! Woo hooo

Feb 01, 2010

  Well its official. I year ago today I was recovering from my revision from a 22 year old very failed VBG to the DS. I have lost 142 lbs and i am 59 lbs from my goal of 153.(My PCP says thats too much, but 153 seems like a lot to me now... LOL) I started at 354 lbs and today i weigh 212. 12.1 lbs from "one-derville".  My next mini goal is crossing into  "Oneder-ville
Praise Break:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CklAwchIJ1A
I want to lose 201 lbs when I am finished.
Not too shabby for a "golden girl" revision. 
I am 54.
I am the smallest i have ever been in my adult life. I weighed in the 220's when i was in high school 40 years ago. I have gone from a womans size 32/34 to an 18.  No insulin. blood pressure meds, c pap anymore. 
Unfortunately time and gravity has done much damage. The "girls went from a 48DD to a very flat,floppy 40C. My body looks real weird with the shelves (for want of a better description) of fat and "shar-pei" looking skin. Also my incision healed weird so I have a lop sided muffin top panni. yeah I know TMI LOL    There is a horizontal fold that doesn't meet where the vertical cut is. Sorry to whine but it really looks strange. My face has dropped and I look haggard. I always thought my fat face was kinda cute/pleasant. (sigh)Please understand,  I am grateful for losing the weight. I guess I will have to get over the other stuff.
I do not have buyers remorse. I don't have poo issues and gas only bothers me when I mess with white flour. I wish I had this tool 22 years ago instead of the VBG but I am grateful for this second chance.
I do  my DS. It is very friendly to African american culture (soul food). I do not feel deprived at all. I love my dreamfields mac and cheese, cheesey grits, pork (bacon oh yeah) in every form etc. I am grateful for all the encouragement and wisdom here on OH.
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Less than 48 hours

Jan 27, 2009

I cannot believe it. It is Tuesday 1/27 and in less than 48 hours I will be in surgery. I have to admit I am awed at the thought of this second chance. I am not scared of the surgery. The real party will be the recovery. I have wonderful friends praying for me. Monica who I met on this site has opened her home to me. She lives close to the hospital. She is such a generous person. They (her and her mom) are going to go to the hospital with me. Kccruisercats is going to be my angel and let everyone know about my progress. What wonderful caring people. I fully intend to pay it forward when I am through this. The idea that i can actually lose this excess weight is almost a fantasy. When I think of all I have been through in my life, how many of my bad decisions were based on my lack of self esteem, i realize the tragedy of obesity.  I will no longer allow myself to be treated as less than........I am a kind generous person. I deserve to be treated well and with respect. I thank God for my surgeon and his team. I am so grateful for this second chance. I will rock this DS. Next year this time.........
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It is really gonna happen!

Jan 01, 2009

Well here I am exactly28 days away from my revision surgery. I can hardly believe it. I am so very grateful to My Father God who has extended mercy to me and allowed me to live this long. In 19 days I will have my pre op visit with the surgeon (Dr. Brent Stewart , Tallgrass surgical) and the hospital (St Francis, Topeka Ks). The same day President elect Obama will be sworn in as the first African American President. I never thought I would live long enough to experience either occurance. I am so ready to do this revision. I have those little nagging thoughts in the back of my mind. I am determined to ignore them. I realize this is a risky surgery. I realize I am 20 years older (53) and now I have all the obese baggage. (high blood pressure, edema,pre diabetic labs etc) But i know that God has not lead me this far to leave me now. I am so inspired by the people on this site. I know I can do this and be sucessful this time. I am ready to reclaim what has been robbed from me all my life. I feel like I have always had to apologize and explain my worth all of my life. If I inventory  every bad relationship i stayed in too long I could keep Maury, Jerry, Montel,Oprah and Dr. Phil with topics for at least 8 weeks each. Judge Judy and Hatchett would be horrified at the lengths I went to in order to keep damaged people (men and woman) in my life because I thought I needed them.  I wasn't ever good enough for them to stay just because of who I was. But the light has come on. I am ready to redeem my life and live the rest of it in the fullness that the LORD Jesus promised. He came that I have life and that more abundantly. For me that is not riches and stuff that is promoted in this warped american christian cult, but rather the peace and joy that only comes from above. I cannot love my neighbor when my actions attest to the fact that i do not love myself. I cannot love myself if i allow damaged people to further tear me down. Toxic relationships have robbed my peace, my bank account, my self esteem and any joy this life has brought me. I have had to rethink my relationships with my children who are now adults with way too many problems they always seem to need mommy to resolve. (usually that involves me sending my little bit of money) Any other time I am just tolerated. Enough of that also! I know under this 354 lbs there is a funny,caring, compassionate, intelligent woman that can be a wonderful friend and a gracious companion. I am determined that I will not waste this opportunity. To God be the glory.  28 more days!
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Flight Booked! Oh boy it's getting real now!!

Apr 14, 2008

Well I have a plane ticket for 4/26. My appointment is 4/28 and is confirmed. I am only 14 days away from meeting Dr. Inman and hopefully starting the best next half of my life. Who would have thought that life begins @ 50 !  anyway, I am ready to do this and make it work.

Now I am flying to Indiana

Mar 09, 2008

Well I called the insurance company and they were furious. They say she is double dipping (surgeon that wanted $350 up front). They advised me to look for another surgeon. The good news is they are backing me on this. I have read so many horrible insurance stories on here. My company wants me to get the surgery! I have decided on Dr Inman in Indiana. It is really scary thinking about flying out there by myself. However, I am determined to get this done. I really liked her receptionist. She was a sweety. I have a consult on 4/28. So far the plane fare is around $200 R/t so that is cheaper then $350 consult fee.  Dr. Inman has a gr8 track record for revision and DS surgery so i am very hopeful. Also the town is "Carmel". Not only is that one of my favorite toppings LOL  it is also the mountain where the Prophet Elijah defeated the false prophets of baal.  My weight has been a false prophet in my life for too long. I am ready to "kill the problem" and move to true life. So I am going to Carmel to let the fire fall.

Gosh My life is a trip

Feb 25, 2008

I called the surgeon to make sure she does revision surgery. The nurse said she did not realize I was a revision, so my consult fee went from 150 to $350
Sigh..Well I have to figure out who i ain't gonna pay this month. I really want this! They said the insurance would refund it but I don't think so. I have a plan that the Dr. is supposed to accept what the insurance pays and not bill me extra.  Now I have to call them and see what they say. either way I am going to keep this appt. 
JO My latter days will be greater than my former
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Making progress Consult date 3/14 seminar 3/15

Feb 25, 2008

I have a consult date of 3/14. I can't seem to find anyone on any of the boards that have used this surgeon. She is not on the duodenal switch boards list of surgeons. Anyway i am going to call her office to make sure she does the revision surgery. Her website states she does BPD/DS. They have several guides for the patients who are undergoing this procedure.  It seems like a lot of trouble if they are trying to steer you to another surgery. Anyway I am going to do my home work. I want this done and I want it done right. 
jo

My Latter will be greater than my Former!!!

Feb 08, 2008

Well, Good morning all. I am beginning my journey to break out of this prison I have been carrying all my life. I have spent most of the night on this site. I have looked at before and after pics and read the blogs. I have decided to have the DS procedure.  I will take the first steps on Mon 2/11. There is a surgeon and a center of excellence in Lenexa KS. I am in NE Oklahoma. I have been trapped in this fat all of my life. Consequently I have been robbed of so much. I am 52 years old and I will enjoy the promise of God when he said in Haggai 2:9 The latter will be greater than the former (my life) and He will give me peace and prosperity. (my paraphrase).  jo
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