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I have been overweight my whole life. I now have a 15 month old daughter whom I do not want the same life for her. I do not want her to be embarrassed of her mother because of weight issues, as I was of mine. I want to live to see Tatum have grandchildren. My passion is working with horses and riding them. The riding part has not been very enjoying since I topped the scales at about 300# a few years back. I have always suffered from depression, looking back now, since a very young age. I want to feel healthy again and have the energy to keep up with my Toddler. I also have underlying issues, I need to have a large benign thyroid tumor removed which is affecting my trachea, I have gall stones, and an umbilical hernia. I am suffering from depression and anxiety issues right now. I am just a mess. I feel like it too. I am doing the Metabolic Fasting Program with Dr. Kamrath in Walnut Creek, CA. I have lost 18.6# but it seems like it just won't come off fast enougth.I am hoping to stick to this program until I get accepted in to the WLS program somewhere my insurance co. covers it. I was told the Bariatric Program at Mt. Diablo doesn't accept Blue Cross HMO 100% plan. I also have a secondary insurance with Blue Cross, PPO prudent buyer thru my husband. I have spoke with Dr. Kamrath, who heads up the MNP, he is supporting me in my decision to have the surgery. I have been told that I can have my surgery at Stanford, which actually makes me feel better.
Alot of the time I feel as if people think of me as a fat, lazy slob, and don't give me a chance with things, especially at work. I want that to change, I want to be a role model for others and especially my daughter. Anyway thank you for reading my profile.
9/11/06 Update: I have not been doing well on the fasting, gained most of my weight back! I have been severly depressed the past few months, so bad my Psychitrist has put me out on disability. Stanford doesn't require a weight loss amount just that I be on a doctor supervised weightloss program for 6 months, well six months will be October 18, and you can bet your ass that I will be having my doctor resubmit my WLS papers. I hope I can get the Sx before going back to work, I am going to really try and fast for the next month and re-loose the weight that I gained by Overeating. My psychologist wants me to attend a few O.A. meetings, I haven't yet but want to do that. I am going to try and get off the couch while I am on disability and actually take my daughter for a walk to the park, we live close to one, and I have never walked there. That is really sad to me. Anyway enough of my sob story, it could be worse, by good friend is fighting for her life in the hospital. Please pray for her. I never wanted to believe in GOD, but what the hell what do I have to loose now...
Update: 12/22/06 I have scheduled my counciltation with Dr. Morton at Stanford! Yeah I am so excited!!!!!! 1/12/06 9am in Stanford. Been feeling a bit better with my depression, its still there, but I am trying to get out more now. Anyway I saw Dr. Kamrath today and he gave me some pre-surgery test to have done, so it will be easier for me to schedule a surgery date. I'll keep everyone posted!
