j0nesy22
I guess I should start at the very very beginning.... I was always a little heavier than most kids, but not bad..Coming from a family and definitely has an obesity probelm.. Maybe it was genetics or maybe just laziness, I'm not sure... When I was 10 Yrs old, I dropped alot of weight because I was diagnosed a diabetic and went into diabetic shock which caused me to lose almost 30lbs in 2 days... I always stayed at a normal weight, til about high school... I guess thats when the depression started, looking at all the other girls in my catholic school who were extremely skinny and getting all the girls and I turned to food out of boredom and hopelessness..My sister who was always heavier than me lost 90lbs doing the Atkins diet, every diet I ever tried, I failed miserably, I wouldnt see results and I would just give up.. I think this added to the depression also...When I turned 20, everything took a turn for the worse, my sugars were out of control, I needed more insulin which caused weight gain, I had a boyfriend who I just got too comfortable around and didn't care what I looked like anymore, this went on for about 4 yrs..turning 21 in the midst did not help at all..bar scenes and all....Finally one night when we were out, probably in a drunken stupor my boyfriend just laid it all out for me.. I wasn't taking care of myself, if I didn't do something soon I was going to die at a young age from complications, you can get the picture.. He didn't do it in a mean way, just a concerned and it got me thinking... It bothered me for a month or two and then I made my decision... I wasn't going to do it for him, or my family but it was time that I cared about myself again and wanted to feel proud of myself...I looked into Temple University's Bariatric Program and decided I felt comfortable with them and this was a decision I definitely wanted to make... Oct 18th is my 2nd birthday now,going into the operation room weighing 296lbs. I have no regrets, everything went flawlessly, surgery and recovery.. Needless to say I am not with that boyfriend anymore who opened my eyes but I definitely owe my life to him.. Without that push, I don't think I would have ever done anything and just lived my life an out of control,overweight diabetic who would have complications at an early age and who knows what...Everything just feels second nature to me now, My self esteem is flying high and feeling awesome about myself again..Right now I'm 103lbs lighter with a new outlook on life...
