Jacklyn55
February 2009 - Still losing and loving life!
Feb 21, 2009
Well we are almost 2 months into 2009, hard to believe! I am still in a sweet spot with the band, am not hungry between meals which is good. I should hit the clinic soon to check in and get weighed. According to my scales I am 115 lbs down now. I am 259lbs which astounds me!! I know most girls would DIE if they were that heavy but I am thrilled lol. I do not think I have weighed this since... junior high I am guessing. Maybe when I was 14??Life is really good. Like I have said I am loving the shopping and buying clothes. What I love the most is that I am almost a "normal person" now. Sounds crazy but no longer getting looks from people for my size and being afraid of everything is so nice. I can sit in any restaurant booth, concert seat, go through any turnstyle etc. I booked a flight yesterday for myself to fly alone! I have not done that in 10 years.... always so scared about who I would be squishing into next to me. All those fears and anxieties are long gone! I love it...
The only thing I still get nervous about is clubs and bars... I still feel like I am too big and unattractive to go and like I will stick out like a sore thumb. The problem is I am really ready to get out there and start dating and I am noticing no one is walking up to me in the mall etc. I have friends I can go with etc. but the confidence is just not there yet.... soon hopefully.
As I write this I am thinking of what goal I want to reach before I write again.... ok by the next post I want to be under 250lbs and into a size 18. Me a size 18... crazy... lol. I am a solid 20 now... so not far to go! We bought a treadmill and right now I am doing it 5 days a week 2-2.5 miles a shot. Gotta keep that up!
Wish me luck!
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