Two days left and last day to eat!

Oct 08, 2012

Well, here it is. 2 more days and then I will be joining the loser bench. :) I am so excited! Couldn't really sleep last night. Lot's of tossing and turning, mind racing, thinking of all the things that got me to where I am today. Kind of like "woe is me", I can't believe that I have to have surgery to get healthy. Wonder if that has happened to anyone else. I am not worried or afraid to have surgery, but I couldn't help regret that I have put myself in this position. That in all of these years, I couldn't make the right food choices for myself. Blah, blah, blah. Yeah, that is what kept me up all night. Plus, I am mourning food at the moment. I know that I will be able to eat a lot of my favorite foods, but I also will be giving up a lot as well. But, I am completely ready to start my new and improved life.

I am actually not hungry today. I thought about it a lot. "What would I have to eat my last day?" Steak, chinese, so many choices really. Now that today is here, I am not even hungry. Tomorrow I am on clear liquids and then nothing to eat or drink after midnight. Then clear liquids for 2 weeks post op. I can do this, I will do this. And this precious tool that is about to be given to me, I will not take it for granted. I will use my tool as directed and follow every part of my surgeons plan. I have lost 40 lbs pre op and am not ever looking back. Planning to lose 175 more, being healthy, doing all the things I have wanted to do for the last 15 years is what I have to look forward to. What a blessing this surgery is for many, many people. I am glad I am about to be one of those people. :)

So, when you hear from me again, I will be on the other side! :) See you soon.

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