8 weeks out

Apr 11, 2016

So 8 weeks out and at the 6 week weigh in I was down 58 pounds. (not counting the 60 pounds lost pre-surgery)  If you average that out its about 9.6 per week.  Now I think I am stalled and not moving and super stressed at the moment.

Here is what has been going on..

As some of you know on here I am in a wheelchair and have been primarily immobile for 8 years.  Im not in a chair due to my weight, but of course it doesnt help. The following is what I posted to a social media support group following the week I have had which really pushed every button I had when it comes to triggers.

I have had a lifetime of diet success and failures and with that well meaning family and friends always putting in their two cents, commenting on what I ...should eat, exercises and so on. Once I took this step I was really hoping things would change. I have only made TWO posts on social media, one for prayer going into surgery and the other in shock when I was admitted to the ER and they weighed me and I was down 42 pounds. Other than those two posts I only post here or in a private weight loss support group that I have run for 12 years. Lately I have gotten so many questions and comments that I feel like I'm before a firing squad. Why am I still in a wheelchair? Why am I not walking? How much MORE weight have I lost? When is the next weigh in? (Oh, my friend lost quickly in the beginning, because I guess 58 pounds in 6 weeks is slow) Why do I need help with attending church? Why cant I wheel myself into the building? (and these are from all different people) Even my doctor said ...looking at me in a wheelchair " if you walk a mile and its too easy, try walking a mile and a half." I laughed and said I would be happy to make the end of my driveway.

I feel like even MORE than before surgery I am getting judged as fat, and lazy and apparently I'm not jumping through enough hoops. I have friends referencing 600 pound life and telling me that all those people do is make excuses and that's why they aren't successful. So now that they feel educated by that show its a free for all and any answer I give is an excuse. If I turn my back on everyone making comments its almost all my friends and family. Has anyone experienced this? What do you do? My stress level is through the roof and thank goodness I am mobile enough to get out for a ride in the car because the desire to stress eat is immeasurable at only 8 weeks out I feel like a failure.

End Rant. :(

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