Jan B.
Beginning the Journey
Apr 04, 2009
After lots, lots, LOTS of prayer, soul-searching, crying, talking, dreaming & thinking about WLS, I am ready to start down the road. My husband has been supportive as I read and researched to get to this point. So, today, we sat down to talk. I told him that I had to get off center - I had to "do, or do not" (as Yoda said!) - because I am making myself sick waffling back and forth between yes and no. After a long talk, we decided YES!! We talked about my reasons for surgery - mostly that we have always enjoyed hiking, geocaching, camping, working in the yard, doing household repair and building projects and traveling, and at this point, I cannot hold out to do ANY of that!! I can't deny that it would be wonderful to buy SMALLER, CUTER clothes - but that is NOT my primary reason for wanting the surgery.Unfortunately, what research I have done leads me to believe that my insurance will not cover the surgery, even after I wait their required 6 month waiting period. Even tho my BMI is 38, I do not have any "diagnosed" co-morbidities, except slight hypertension (I do take a low-dose med for that.) I do have acid reflux, back pain, shortness of breath and wheezing, and extremely reduced stamina. None of those are considered life-threatening, but they are definitely quality-of-life-threatening. So, it's financing for us, which is OK, because we've been "financers" for things we've wanted all our married life. Also, now that I have my mind set, I really want to press ahead - I do not want to have to wait 6 months!!
I have gone back and read my daughter-in-love's blogs from her pre-op time, and she is so eloquent. (username: JenBloodworth) When she talks about wanting to be sure she is in God's will by having surgery, she is speaking my heart. She is almost 2 years successfully post-op with no complications and SHE LOOKS AND FEELS FREAKIN' FANTASTIC!!! I can only hope that God honors my good intentions as he has hers.
I have to admit that I am very scared - of complications and then also of regretting it after the surgery. I won't deny I love to eat (duh! who'd a thunk??), and I think I will miss it to some degree. But I hope as the weight drops away and I can walk and do things - anything - again, the compromises will seem more like old friends.
So, a battle plan: Dr. Facundus's informational meeting Tuesday night, appt with family doctor next week, possible cardiac work-up due to age (52), and possible appt with plastic surgeon (to get an idea of how much flab I will be left with post-op). Husband will take care of money issue, bless him. Then a decision between 2 surgeons, a full appt with the doctor of choice and setting a surgery date!!
For any reader who has happened upon this note: please lift me up in prayer and send me good thoughts!! This is definitely a giant step of faith for me, and I would covet any good wishes you could send my way!!
More to come as the preparatory steps are ticked off!!!
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Owens Cross Roads, AL
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01/20/2010
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Sep 16, 2008
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