In onederland

Mar 14, 2010

Finally made it.  It took about a month, but got to onederland.  I have not been feeling well.  Went to the Dr. got a blood test, should have the results tomorrow.  Maybe "dumping" very dizzy when I stand, energy level low.  Had a cold before, maybe over the counter meds caused it. Got meds for rumbling tummy and sinus drainage.
The good part of weight loss is being able to wear just about everything in my closet. I'm having to get rid of a lot, somethings I have not worn much, and I love the complements, which makes me want to look even better.  I think I am about 30 lbs. from where I want to be.  I have never asked the Dr. about that.
I still can't believe I have lost so much, about 90 lbs. I don't think I could have ever done it without the surgery.  I felt so guilty not being able to keep weight off. I appreciate the tool I have been given to help weight control.
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obese

Feb 09, 2010

Went to the dr. today-or her office. Talked with the nut quiet awhile. I'm still in the obese range.  But I began at 47 BMI, and today was 37. So I have improved, but still obese, but not mobidly obese. Another goal to work on, I think I have completed the others.
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onederland

Feb 07, 2010

Just about 2-3 more pounds and I'll be there--onederland!!! Can't believe it. All along this journey, in the back of my brain I thought "It's not going to work".  Now, I know, I really needed the surgery to accomplish this weight loss.  Even though at times, I still feel guilty that I could not do this on my own. Does it show  a weakness? A lack of faith in the temple?
Yesterday at church, so many people commented on my weight loss, and how good I look.  After lossing about 80 pounds, people are really noticeing.  At a support goup I attend, one of the ladies began singing "I'm so skinny, oh so skinny" instead of "I'm so pretty, oh so pretty", even though she has not lost where she wants to be.  I feel that way at times, "I'm so skinny, Oh, so skinny"  How long has it been since I've been at this weight?  At least 30 years. Now, getting rid of clothes and other baggage.
I am enjoying life more, I am more out-going, and not so focused on "ME".  I would not do so many things--little things-like get out of a chair in a group, because people would see how big I was, or not say anything because of the attention. Really I was not as friendly.  My weight has taken so much life from me.
I have accomplished my goals, I need some new ones, daily goals -  Eating slower, taking all vitamins and exercising.. Not eating sugar or wheat products does pay off.  When you are eating with other people, it is so easy to "break over", thinking, I can have just a bite, for me, I can't have just a bite-yet.  Maybe someday I will be able to eat just a bite, but I"m still scared of eating just a bite. 
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about 70 pounds down

Dec 30, 2009

Thanksgiving and Christmas are over. I have pretty much stuck to not eating wheat and sugar things.  The other night we were at friends house, she always tries to fix for me.  She had been baking pies and knew I could not eat them, so she fixed me the let over crust with Cinnamon and a sugar substitute on it.  I had to eat it, I could not tell her I couldn't eat it after she had fixed it for me. Other people liked it and ate most of it.
I think I have been through all the things that happen when you eat too much or something you shouldn't.  Although I have not thrown up.  I have had dry heaves and the foamies, and after Thanksgiving dinner I think I had a sugar thing to happen.  It was about 2-3 hours after I had eaten.  All of a sudden I had a cold sweat and dizzy.  I made it to bed and after awhile I felt better.  I had eaten some sweet potatoes, I think there was pure sugar on top, I remember the grainy texture of it.
For Christmas we went to Granbury, Tx. and made it through a snow storm, and did the rest of the family.  I took nuts, a potato casserole and a breakfast casserole, and wine.  I have never drank much wine, but now it really seems to help my stomach/digestion, even though I'm not crazy about the taste of it.
I just got results of my last blood test.  I think I am low in many areas, I need to go over it with some knowledgeable people, like my pharmacist who is a good friend.  Getting down all the pills is a challenge everyday.  I don't think I have accomplished it.
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60 pounds down

Nov 17, 2009

I'm just about half way to my goal. It has not been easy. Did anyone say it would? I am staying away from all flour products sugar and colas.  Still watching my portions and try to eat slower. I have been feeling pretty good. At one time I thought I would never feel good for a complete week.  I'm about 4 months out.  Thanksgiving is close, I'm getting myself ready for the temptation.  Does it ever stop? As long as I am around chips, dips, crackers and sweets, I feel like I could eat all that is there. I am wearing probably a size 18/20 depending on if it is from Dillards or Walmart.  I think I would like to be a size 12-14.  I read that was average-oh, to be average and not be the largest in a group, or with my family.  Well, I don't think I will ever be smaller than my 3 sisters, I just can't imagine that.
I seem to have more time.  Before surgery, I must have spent alot of time on food.  Going to get food, or fixing something to eat.  I still have jobs to finish, I'm such a procrastinator. Maybe my energy level will increase.
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Nov., 3,'09

Nov 02, 2009

My closet! Seems like I work on it constantly.  I am able to wear things I have not worn in years-or never worn.  It seems I was buying clothes before that were too small.  Sizes really vary, although the tag may say 3X, I may just now be able to wear them.  I have lost @ 50 lbs., and I thought before I started this journey, I wore a 3X!!  Oh, well. Now trying to decide what to do with all the clothes I hope I never wear again.  I'll probably give them away, or take them somewhere.  I've got a few very nice things.
I am still having trouble with eating small bites and slowly.  It seems can chicken made into a salad is one of my stand-bys.  At a restaurant chalupas are good, and not eating the tortilla on the bottom, just the beans, cheese and salad on top.
My face is changing, more wrinkles, and my coloring appears to be really pale. I have about 70 more lbs to loose, what am I going to look like?
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Oct. 20, 09

Oct 20, 2009

Just about 3 months since surgery, eating is better, not so much burping and sick feeling after eating.  I HAVE to eat slower and small bites, hopefully I've learned this.  I've learned how to eat at the restaurants here. I am leaving off all breads and sweets.  Mainly protein.  I need to exercise more.  I've lost over 40 pounds, scales seem to be stuck most of the time.  Energy level is better this week, hopefully it will continue. I've had a UTI, hope I can start taking Cranberry vits. again. Seems like I take vits or some kind of pill all the time. I'm only on one prescribed medication.
Been working on the newspaper alot to get it on line. Probably spending too much time at the computer.
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Last office visit

Oct 02, 2009

Tuesday, 9-29-09, I had an appointment.  I saw the PA as usual.  I have seen the dr. maybe 4 times.  I am low in vit. D, got a prescription.
While I was in San Antonio, I decided to venture out and do some shopping.  I got a new pair of pants and a top.  The pants are a size 18.  The clerk said a size 18 is a 1X, and I am wearing 2X now.  Anyway they are too small, and really look little, I got them for insentive.  I have lost 40 lbs. surgery was Aug. 6.
Now, I am enjoying crossing my legs when I set down.  walking is easier, up and down stairs a lot better, in and out of the car much easier.
I still feel bad sometimes when I eat.  Last night after I ate I walked over to a friend's house, that helped alot. So, maybe I need to walk or do physical stuff after I eat. 
People are beginning to notice the weight loss, I need to get better at taking compliments.
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5 to 6 weeks out

Sep 18, 2009

A week ago today, I felt so bad.  I thought it was the Chilie I ate at Wendy's, (about 5 teaspoons) maybe so, but there are many other things it could have been.
I have not been able to get back on the vitamins.  When I try to take them, it seems they go right through me.  It was nearly time for a blood test, so I had one yesterday, there were 2 areas in which I was low.  Next week, I go back to dr. we will see what happens.
I've also notice I cannot drink water like I did before surgery.  I use to glup water, pouch does not appreciate that now, and it does not seem to like cold drinks -- but my mouth does!  I've tried a lot of drinks, but I like decaf tea (no sweetner) the best.
Because of the upset last week, I've lost nearly 40 lbs since Aug. 6, surgery date.  Clothes I have not worn in years are feeling comfortable.  I think people are just now beginning to notice a change.
I think this has been a pretty hard adjustment.  Learning how to eat slowly and small bites, even though I was suppose to do this duing the pre-surgery time, it is difficult, especially when you are starved.  If I had not had the gastric surgery, do you think I would still be on this diet? no way. I had to have more drastic steps, the fear of getting sick eating sweets or too much.
Accountability - sometimes I hate that word!
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nearly 4 weeks

Sep 01, 2009

Sept. 1, '09, Every day is a trial.  I have not dumped, but I think I have come close to it.  When I eat something, I have to concentrate on eating slowly, and small bites.  Soups are my friend.  Maybe eggs when I eat out.  I tried warming scrambled eggs in the microwave-not good.  I have had bouts with a pain on my left side, this is probably  from eating too fast, or not chewing enough.  We have eaten out, I have been able to order soup or from a breakfast menu.  Usually eggs with refried beans.  I do get tried, and need to nap at least once a day.  If I walk 3 times a week, that is good.  It is still so very hot here, around 100 degress in the afternoon.
I am getting into some clothes I have not worn in some time.  That is encourageing.
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