Jasmine211

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Well today, is my one month anniversary and I have lost 33 pounds so far. I will be honest to say that I was trying to get more off like some of my OH friends, but I begin to really think about what is really important. I have a few friends whom I work with that shows me their waist or how they can eat what they want now( keep in mind they are less than a year out). At this point, I began a little iriitated about what they were saying and I realize that I can't judge others for their choices. However, I can learn from them. This is when I begin to realize how much weight I needed to lose internally as well. You know the " man, I want some fast food, candy, chips, pop, and I dont feel like working out"..... that weight.

Now people want to say it's the easiest way out, think again. I have changes so much internally from this experience, and only a month out. I told a OH friend of mind, how its totoally helping me slow things down and enjoy. Not just with eating, but with life journey. I realize how much my weight blocked so many things like socially, mentally,emotionally, physically and in my career. And in a month so much has been revealed, I asked GOD a few weeks ago to teach me to appreciate the beuatiful trees, people laughter, smiles, gentle gestures, and he totally did. Everyday, my soul is filled with joy because I not so consumed about what I am going to eat, wear, or why can't i look like this or that. Its just sings  constantly" I can see clearly now the rain is gone, I can see all the obstacle in my way, and what gone is the dark clouds that had me blind.Blind to this beautiful person , that I am totally falling in love with everyday..... Myself. I am greatful , that this self- love GOD is teaching me isn't "Physical" because I look like this or that but unconditional love. For a long time, I wanted to love myself more, and who would have ever that a WLS could help me mentally remove the moutian that blocked my "bright day".

 I am not vain, nor arrogant, but I love myself. I didn't know who I really was because I didn't want to know me because of how I looked, and now that I can't turn to food all I have is me...... and I tell you nothing else taste better than that.

 

**** I pray that my journey will bless others to the path of SELF love, not arrogance, vainity, but simple "Love thyself".

 

 

I will have the surgery on Dec 28,2007. Please keep me in your prayers, it seems so unreal. This date was postpone and my new date is
April 25,2007 after the policy changed as of Jan.1,2008. I dont need documentation anymore, because my BMI was over 50. i am so so so happy. Can't wait

I finished the entire process for my surgery. I am just wating for approval. I also found out that I am Vitamin D deficient and I have to take 50,000 IU of Vitamin D  once a week for six week to bring it up. So I was excited to know that those were the only thing that was deficient. I have Blue cross Blue Shield for Federal Employees so hopefully it wont be long. However, I still wont be able to have it untill the end of Feb or March of 2008. I have to finish a Algebra class for the Nursing Program I will be in next August. I am so excited about my new beginning, it has given me hope and energy to start conquering things I put off.

I have researched this surgery for over ten years, but this year  I have finally decied to go ahead with it. My appointments are at the end of this month. I dont have to have a certain amount of documentation with my insurance , so I hope everythign goes smoothly and fast. I would like to have the surgery in Feb of 2008.