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Well, here I am, 3 years out and I FINALLY took another after picture. Not a shocking difference from my last after picture, but a few pounds lighter.  It was a last minute thought or I would have tried to find something more flattering to wear. You can look at the side shot  to see how droopy and saggy I am.  Really hits home how badly I need that tummy tuck and boob lift!  ::sigh::

But am I happy?  YES.  I wouldn't change a thing.  



3/10/07:  175 lbs

Here are my other pics - before and "during."

3/9/04  325 lbs

Yesterday I got on the scale to see another pound gone putting me down to 175.  This has been an incredible week.  I am sure I'll bounce back up a few pounds as I always do, but it does make me want to keep moving that number down all the sudden.  What will I weigh on my 3 year anniversary of the surgery?
 

This has to be it.  I can't possibly go down any more, could I?  I can't believe how quickly I'm dropping weight this week.  This is like the old days of loss around my period.  I just started my Aunt Flo yesterday and couldn't believe when I got on the scale and it was 176.  Just blows me away.  I'm just a couple weeks shy of my 3 year anniversary from wls, and here all the sudden I am losing again.

I do have to admit that suddenly I'm feeling so close to my goal that I might actually put some steam into this and work to get to that goal.  Slow has been fine, but now that I'm close to the finish line it's really getting me excited!  If I can do that and then have plastics, I could actually be thinner than when I was at my lowest in high school.  That is nearly unfathomable to me.  Wow.  Just...wow.

I'm definitely not looking this gift horse in the mouth, but I'm down to 177 now!  I never thought I'd get below 180.  Heck, I never thought I'd get below 200 for the longest time.  How in the world did this happen?  I didn't lose anything when I was sick with the flu, but right after I started dropping again.  I can't believe this luck!

I do know that during my normal sugar pig out the week before my period (aka PMS) I was sick and not eating anything, and now I'm in the phase of nothing sounds interesting enough to eat (which always seems to follow the pig out), so maybe that is why it worked out this way.  Imagine if I quelled those demons every month...would I continue to lose like this?  Don't know if I'll ever find out though, but it might be worth trying for an experiment.  If I could keep from wanting to murder someone during that hormonicidal period.

On the down side, I finally ate something for dinner last night at work, which was a banana.  Well, putting it on an empty stomach must have been a bad idea because I got the trots really bad.  So bad I could feel my legs cramping up from the potassium loss.  Who knows - could have been a fluke, but I'm thinking it was the banana.  I did this early on right after surgery and it was the only other time I've dumped like this before or since. 

I'm very curious to see what the coming months bring.  Will I finally make it to my goal?????

Wow.  I am pretty much beside myself right now because I have dropped another pound.  What - 3 weeks after my last pound lost, I lose another?  Folks, that takes me out of the 180's!  I can't believe this:  179!!!  I am almost 3 years out from surgery and still losing a little bit here and there. 

This blows me away.  I'm happy, of course.  But just blown away!  Do you realize that if I had a tummy tuck right now that I could lost 7-10 lbs just from that?  It's incredible to think about....that I could be so close to a real goal as that.  I never thought I'd see the day where it came. 

I guess I really better be boning up on my vitamins and minerals if I really want to have that tuck done.  :o)

It always amazes me how once in awhile I lose another pound.  I actually gained almost 10 lbs closing in on my period.  I tend to get ravenous around that time and I eat the wrong things.  It's not all water weight - some of it is the wrong foods I'm eating.  But then the old Aunt Flo comes for a visit and suddenly I am not hungry and even when I am feeling hungry, food is something that it seems I develop almost an aversion to.  I just don't want to bother.  I might take a bite or two of something but I'm just not interested.  I think it's all hormonal based.

Anyway, so 2 days ago I hit 180.  I was so hoping to see 179 but it didn't happen.  Now I will seesaw again and probably come close to 190 again in 3 weeks, but I've learned to go with the flow and not get worked up over it.  I realize that when it happens that I have to help it along to lose back sometimes, while other times it seems to come naturally.

I gave up making my goal a long time ago (it was 155 then I changed it to 165).  I still don't think I'll really ever see it again - maybe possibly after plastics.  But it doesn't hang over my head like a black cloud....which is good.  But at this pace, heck, maybe in a couple years I will actually see that goal.  Wouldn't that be a hoot?  :)

We've got a lot of remodeling going on lately (you can check my webpage at www.javajabbers.com to see pictures of the progress) and it's been quite a mess at the old house lately.  But that's okay, we are really taking it easy and not getting worked up over it, but it does make it hard to think about much else.

My weight has done okay, but I did have a bout close to Thanksgiving where I hit 189 again.  I couldn't believe I was just thisclose to hitting the 190's.  Thankfully it was just before my monthly cycle so some of that was the water gain, but part of it was the goodies from the feasting.  I have a really really rough time staying away from the sweets when I'm pms-ing.  I've just let myself kind of go around that time of the month and things have been working out okay.  Well, for November it seemed to be an alert to me that I can still let it go too far.  So I am back down around 185-ish and trying to make sure that I continue to make the trek downwards instead of upwards.  Still I have to consider this "normal" to a degree considering all the goodies there are to eat around the holidays.  I figure if I can come out without any gain, then I'm ahead of the curve.  I feel like I'll be able to do it.  I would still like to shoot for maybe 165, but I'm realizing that it will be long term.  If anything, it looks like I might make 10 lbs a year.  If it means 10 lbs a year downwards, that's great.  I don't want to see the opposite happen though!

On another note, my sister in law had her RNY a couple of days ago.  I heard she was doing really well, but need to check in with my brother and see how it is going for her.  I am so excited for her.  She is going to be so happy!

Well, Happy New Year to everyone!  I hope 2007 is a very good year for you all!

Things are going better for me since I started back with physical therapy.  Boy was I in a lot of pain, but it took about 2-3 sessions and now I'm feeling SO much better.  I still have pain and still need to work on this, but nothing near like what it was.    The only problem is working so much overtime tends to make it worse, so here I go, back in for more overtime tonight.  :P

I'm trying to do better about keeping up on my vitamins but go through periods where I forget.  I have these b12 patches and although I've been taking more B lately, I'm hoping these are boosting it up even more.  I am trying to get these vitamins in however I can.  I know I've been anemic and the last week hasn't helped me any (you know what I mean) so I need to get those super duper heavy duty iron tabs.

As for weight, I'm almost afraid to get on the scale right now.  I was asked by two different people if I lost more weight and I know I haven't...in fact I am worried that I may have gained.  And for some reason have also forgotten to step on the scale in the last week, so I guess tonight I will try to remember to check the damage.  I've not been really great and imbibed too much during the Halloween rush.  Of course, it didn't help that I was PMSing right during Halloween, so I did eat too much peanut butter taffy! 

I'll update later if I remember to do so.  I have been out of the loop a lot lately.  :P

Well, I finally got in to see my physical therapist yesterday and although I don't feel a whole lot better, just knowing I'll be on the mend soon is giving me a new perspective.  My body just aches from top to bottom though - doesn't exactly make me want to turn cartwheels, that's for sure.  I am so utterly out of whack it's not even funny.  When she had me sit in a certain way to relieve pressure, I felt my chest and my collar bone closest to the center of the chest, and it is higher on the right side and protruding.  I just sat there thinking what an idiot I am for waiting for so long to get in to see her.  My whole body is shifted off balance.  No wonder why I hurt so bad that a Vicodin can't even get rid of the pain.  :o(

As for my weight, I am still up 5 down 5....that's my mode.  I got down to 182 I think....(horrible to lose one's memory!) and in this last week I've ranged from anywhere between 183-188.  I hate those huge jumps, but you learn to live with it.   I'm not really watching what I eat much lately though either....although some days I'm not eating much.  Either way, I know if I wanted to lose more, I could.  I just don't feel I have the energy to focus on that, and frankly, part of me fears going into some sort of dieting mode again only to get back into that mental deprivation pattern.  So I'm happy with losing a pound every few months over losing a lot right away and throwing myself back into dieting deprivation mode.  I think that is the thing I fear the most right now because once I get into that mindset, I feel it would be so easy to start gaining again...

I put my back out awhile ago and haven't gotten into physical therapy like I should have.  Not being able to take NSAIDs is really throwing me for a loop sometimes.  I broke down today and took a Vicodin.  Anyone who knows me personally knows it takes a lot for me to take a Vicodin because I don't like how sleepy it makes me, but here I am fighting the sleepies and all it did was take the edge off...the pain is still there.  This I think for me is the hardest part of having wls.  I won't risk a bleeding ulcer for an Advil, but sometimes I am tempted. 

Oh well, just need to get in to physical therapy and I'll be better.  All those years of obesity is what caused this though.  Degenerative disc disease...who knew I had it?  Now I have to live with it.  :(