Jaybee766
6 month Surgerversary
Aug 27, 2012
Today is officially 6 months post op. My goal for the day is to NOT step on the scale and to NOT read any forum posts here at OH. Sounds wierd right? Well first I want to not consider the number on the scale as a primary measure of success and second I don't want to compare my rate of loss to anyone else to gauge success. So, this is it for my visit to OH today. I feel great - a bit of heel pain but I still plan to jump on the stationary bike this evening. I'm definitely comforatble in clothes in a way that I haven't been for many years. I also feel comforatble in group settings - not worried that people are looking at me/judging me for being the largest in the room. I'm still the largest in the room many times but I don't spend alot of time thinking about that. My latest "demon" is the dreaded family judgement (real or perceived). Still working on finding my voice with that. Probably a job for a therapist regardless of my weight. I'm still working with my trainer Greg and we had a really good talk last Friday about just how much of a challenge it was for me to share with him my weight etc. He's a really good guy and I'm glad I found him. Full disclosure on my biggest "demon" ----- peanut butter. I eat way too much of it. I know it. It has replaced donuts, cupcakes, cookies. I think about it in a very similar way to those things actually. I mentally prepare to eat it while I'm driving home. I don't really understand if it's chemical/physical or emotional. I kind of think it must be emotional unless it releases chemically in a similar way. If it's chemical/physical, I'm not sure what to do about that other than abstain. Which, obviously, is a problem for me. Oh well, I'm a work in process. Ta ta for now.Be well.
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About Me
Silver Spring, MD
Location
36.2
BMI
Surgery
02/27/2012
Surgery Date
Surgeon
Jul 23, 2011
Member Since
