Jeannie83
Hello! My name is Jean. I am a 25 year old mother of two. Ashlyn is my 7year old daughter and in second grade. Then there's Cailyn who just turned 2. I currently stay home with them. I am in the market for a job. I find that I put myself in a predicament because I have been unemployed for a little while now and I must get a job, now of course I am in the middle of my WL journey. I hope it will all work out!
I recently moved to a new neighborhood where I was fortunate to meet someone who has had WLS and she looks amazing. I must admit I have put WLS in the back of my mind for a long time because I wanted to assure myself that I was doing all I could do to loose weight before I put myself under the knife. it has been about 6 years that I have been really unhappy. I had my first daughter in 2001, I was about 200 pds, wearing a size 20. Over the years I have put on so much weight I don't even know myself anymore. After meeting her, my mind was like wow, I actually know someone who has had the surgery and I probably bother her way too much about it, but I am grateful for all of her patience and knowledge. I see that she is a normal human being and she made it through the first year. I am nervous about that but I think I can handle it.Thanx Rachael!
I know I have a good support team. My husband, Dave, has been with me since I was 16, weighing 150 pounds wearing a size 10. He never has gotten on my case about me being obese, I know what he worries about is my health. I want to be a better wife and mother, and I feel that I have let them down being so over weight. I am doing this surgery mainly for me so I can get off of my Blood Pressure Meds, and my knees and ankles wont hurt anymore. But I am also doing this for my kids so I can play with them, go down a slide with them, go swimming and play tennis with them. And for my husband, I want him to be proud of me, he may not care what other people say when they see us together, but I feel like people probably stare and laugh and say mean things. I know I am not suppose to care, but you notice it much more when your fat.
My mom is here for me. All though I do have problems with my 118 pd size 2 sister. 
She just doesn't know when to keep her mouth shut and has expressed she thinks I am being lazy and making excuses for myself as to why I don't just loose weight. She says oh you need to eat less and work out, and it will come off. Well that's easy for her to say because she can climb a stair case and still breathe normally and she doesn't have to go down one stair at a time because her knees give out and hurt. I hope she comes around, even if she doesn't she will never know what it feels like to be fat, she'll just never understand.
I know I show people I am happy and I can still laugh, and I like to go and do stuff with my kids, but on the inside I am immensely unhappy and I just want to be happy and healthy.
I have great respect for everyone who is planning on, or has had the surgery, and just know I count on all of the stories and support you all offer. I hope my journey will be a great and safe one! Thank you!
