jemma28
I'm a whiner and I need to change my outlook.
Jun 11, 2009
I will not give up...I have worked too hard. But I do have my moments and clearly, when I posted on the WL failure board, I was having one. Jill
Summer time
Jun 04, 2009
Well its here. HOT weather, humidity and 2 kids breathing down my neck all day long. This could be a good thing. I think having the kids at home will increase my activity and take my mind off of being preoccupied with food. I worry constantly if I've etaten too much/too little/enough protien etc...A few things I noticd this week were 1) my BAD habit of skipping breakfast and not eating until lunch. I have my am coffee but the thought of food b4 noon makes me queasy. I'm going to look for a protien shake that I actually like drinking. 2) Even if I can't eat it, I still enjoy cooking it. My family has no complaints. 3) I was hoping to have lost more by now. Even though I am the smallest I've been in years, inside I stll feel like I'm 280 pounds. And I still have fat days. 4) I still don't like all the attention from the opposite sex. It freaks me out and I see clearly how for years I kept tose feelings at bay by being morbidly obese and thus invisible.
Also, I was at Old Navy yesterday and the dressing room attendant saw me ( I have known her for years) and she said..."Does your sister shop in here too?" I said, "Nope, I don't have one. That was me. I've lost some weight." She looked at me and screamed OMG! you have. One a side note, I bought size 14 jeans yesterday and they fit! I also picked up a 12 so I will have my fave jeans later on. I'm at 217 pounds now.
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Also, I was at Old Navy yesterday and the dressing room attendant saw me ( I have known her for years) and she said..."Does your sister shop in here too?" I said, "Nope, I don't have one. That was me. I've lost some weight." She looked at me and screamed OMG! you have. One a side note, I bought size 14 jeans yesterday and they fit! I also picked up a 12 so I will have my fave jeans later on. I'm at 217 pounds now.
Update
May 25, 2009
Weight today is 219.5 Stil in a size 16 and they don't seem to be getting that much baggier. I think I will be here until I lose another 10-12 pounds and then I will be looking at a 14. I REALLY want to be under 200 by the end of July but at th rate I'm going I don't think it will happen until sometime in August.
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Down 50 pounds
Apr 13, 2009
And I worked hard for every stinkin pound. If I want to get to my goal of 150, I have 80 pounds left. At the rate I'm going, I think I will be thrilled to be 175. Anything under that will be gravy. I am still looking for a good used treadmill. I really need to get more exercise than I do. I have a special needs child and he takes up so much of my time and energy that I don't have much time to myself, and when I do get it...I have no energy. I went to the Gap today and fit into a regular XL top. I was thrilled. One of these days I will be brave enough to waltz into any store in the mall and try on some chic clothes. Right now if it doesn't come from Old Navy, I don't wear it. I think pretty soon I will be able to divorce Lane Bryant and i won't miss that store for one sceond. So here I sit, 17 weeks post op today, at a 50 pound loss. It's not as much as I would have liked it to be, but I will take it.
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Am I doing enough?
Mar 16, 2009
Today marks my 3 month post op check in. I had my 3 month appt with the dr. last friday. It was not a good experience. Let's just say that from the beginning I have been a slow loser. My highest weight was 280. The week before surgery I went to the dr for preop weighing in at 272...then I freaked out, ate everything in sight and when I weighed in at the hospital, the day of surgery, I was 277. Not the best i have ever behaved, but it's the truth.
Fast forward to today. 237 pounds. Down 40 from surgery and 43 from my highest. THIS IS ACCORDING TO MY SCALE...AND I WEIGH MYSELF AND TRACK THIS DAILY. But at the dr on friday I weighed in at 240 according to his scale (I hate that scale) so he, having me at a starting weight of 272, sees me as having only lost 32 pounds. And did I ever get a talking to about that. i felt like a failure and a child who just wanted to be accepted. I didn't explain my bad behavior or defend myself...I just took it.
So I wonder if I am really doing enough? I have gone from a size 22 to a 16, I record everything I eat, eat all organic foods, and follow the WLS rules. I know I dont move my butt enough but if I was good at exercising I would have never gotten to 280. I don't do fast food or sugar. But I will have a single bite of something if it's a special occasion. I take my vitamins, drink my water and don't do sodas. So why am I such a slow loser? Why am I failing at this?
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Fast forward to today. 237 pounds. Down 40 from surgery and 43 from my highest. THIS IS ACCORDING TO MY SCALE...AND I WEIGH MYSELF AND TRACK THIS DAILY. But at the dr on friday I weighed in at 240 according to his scale (I hate that scale) so he, having me at a starting weight of 272, sees me as having only lost 32 pounds. And did I ever get a talking to about that. i felt like a failure and a child who just wanted to be accepted. I didn't explain my bad behavior or defend myself...I just took it.
So I wonder if I am really doing enough? I have gone from a size 22 to a 16, I record everything I eat, eat all organic foods, and follow the WLS rules. I know I dont move my butt enough but if I was good at exercising I would have never gotten to 280. I don't do fast food or sugar. But I will have a single bite of something if it's a special occasion. I take my vitamins, drink my water and don't do sodas. So why am I such a slow loser? Why am I failing at this?
About Me
Houston, TX
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35.0
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Surgery
04/15/2011
Surgery Date
May 02, 2008
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