Summer time

Jun 04, 2009

Well its here.  HOT weather, humidity and 2 kids breathing down my neck all day long.  This could be a good thing.  I think having the kids at home will increase my activity and take my mind off of being preoccupied with food.  I worry constantly if I've etaten too much/too little/enough protien etc...A few things I noticd this week were 1) my BAD habit of skipping breakfast and not eating until lunch.  I have my am coffee but the thought of food b4 noon makes me queasy.  I'm going to look for a protien shake that I actually like drinking.  2)  Even if I can't eat it, I still enjoy cooking it.  My family has no complaints.  3)  I was hoping to have lost more by now.  Even though I am the smallest I've been in years, inside I stll feel like I'm 280 pounds.  And I still have fat days.  4)  I still don't like all the attention from the opposite sex.  It freaks me out and I see clearly how for years I kept tose feelings at bay by being morbidly obese and thus invisible.

Also, I was at Old Navy yesterday and the dressing room attendant saw me ( I have known her for years) and she said..."Does your sister shop in here too?"  I said, "Nope, I don't have one.  That was me.  I've lost some weight."  She looked at me and screamed OMG!  you have.  One a side note, I bought size 14 jeans yesterday and they fit!  I also picked up a 12 so I will have my fave jeans later on.  I'm at 217 pounds now.

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