Getting closer...

Aug 24, 2013

Well, thanks to another member on the site, I was able to figure out why I couldn't post a blog! (In case anyone is wondering, Obesity Help and Internet Explorer are not friends!) So now, I get to share my story too!

On Wednesday I went to my 6th and final dietician appointment and this upcoming Wednesday, I meet with my surgeon. I'm excited and nervous and everything in between. It's been a long journey to this point. At least 7 months of the process thus far...it's been a lot of time and a lot of energy. I've met some great people along the way and I'm glad that I'm part of this site. So many supportive people, ready and willing to help the newbies like myself. 

I'm really nervous about surgery. Mostly because I'm afraid of the pain I'll be in afterward. That's what hubby is most afraid of too. I'm a bit of a wuss and I can't handle pain. I'm in the midst of dealing with some hardcore allergies and I act like I'm dying lol. My kids are really torn about the whole thing...they're anxious to see what I will look like when I'm skinny, but they keep telling me "I don't want you to have the surgery...I like you fat!" I've spent their whole lives telling them not to judge others for the way they look...and now I'm permanently altering my body so that I can please society and be happier in my skin. I feel like a hypocrite. 

I'm so close to everything that I can taste it. I'm hoping everything is smooth sailing. I'm ready to get in and get it over with and start the journey to the new me. I can't wait to see what I'll look like when I'm thinner. I can't wait to feel what it's like to have energy and be able to keep up with the kids. I can't wait to prove to everyone that I have what it takes to succeed. I CAN and WILL do this. I won't fail myself this time. I'm :hopefully: being handed a second chance at life. I'm not going to take it for granted. Stay tuned. Now that I can blog, I will be doing it often! :) 

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