10-16-09

Oct 16, 2009

So my 1 yr came and went and I did nothing to celebrate it.  In fact it past and I didn't even think about it.  I have not had a penny toent  spend on myself.  So no haircut no cute outfit no pictures.  I guess it will come when things get better.  On a better note. I have replaced my laptop that crashed with a netbook.  Cute small will travel well.  Lightweight, I like that.  So I guess that was my splurge.  On the weightloss side????  I am still fluctuating around 129.  Which is good.  I do not need to lose another pound.  But something in my head keeps saying, "you can wear a 4 dress, can u get into a 4 pant?"  Is that really necesary?  That will be too small for me I think.  But of course weight has become an obsession.  I wanted meat so badly today but I don't usually eat it.  It makes me feel bad and gives me terrible gas.  So I broke down and decided it was time to add something new to the diet.  Brisket.  Yeah brisket maybe 4 bites and a bite of mac n cheese (i dont do pasta) and some corn.  Mind u this is y i dont do meat and pasta.  In 10 minutes I was on the toilet.  Dont act like you havent had that same problem.  I also had a piece of roll (i dont do bread).  It was nasty.  I use to die for any bread.  I havent had any in a yr and i realized today that it is gross.  Just mushy dough.  Yuck.  No more bread ever. So I decided well meat was a bad idea lets try a lil salad for dinner.  Hell no.  Again something I dont usually eat and this is why.  Right to the bathroom.  No more variety for me.  Ill stick to my enchiladas.  At least I know I am safe there.  I have planned a trip to San Diego for Nov.  I am really excited.  All of my family is there and they have not seen me since surgery.  They are all buggin on what I might look like.  I am also newly in touch with a few old friends so this should really be fun.

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