Jenna V.
A new life
Jul 05, 2012
In the summer of 2010, my referral was sent to the bariatric registry. We, as an obese community, have had to endure months (or even years) of waiting, along with many appointments, different tests, opti fast, life altering surgery, etc. Throughout the whole process, I was scared beyond belief but knew I needed help if I wanted to live the life I had always dreamed of. I was 410 pounds, broken and letting life pass me by.I still remember how I felt the day of my VSG surgery (Feb 15, 2012). I shed a few tears while I was on the operating table waiting for the anesthesia to kick in but I had made peace with the fact that I could die. At least I was doing something to better my life. I was scared I would fail at this because of my eating disorder. Being obese is all I have ever known- it is a part of me and my "identity". I am seeing a psychologist, as well as attending an eating disorder program, which I feel is necessary. There is always a reason for the way people are, and I know counseling is needed.
I have endured painful complications (infected incision and MANY flare ups of gout that severely limited my mobility). I have survived and prospered. For the first time in a long time, I am HAPPY. I am starting to love myself and realize that I CAN do this. I have gotten this amazing opportunity to re-invent myself and life as I have always know it.
I am officially half way to goal; I started off at 410 pounds and having to lose 270 pounds. I have lost 135 and have 135 left to go. This is not a race for me, though. I am becoming healthy, not skinny and that takes time, effort and determination. I have went from a 5X shirt to a 2X-3X, not being able to fit in any jeans to being able to wear a 22-24. I have went from having a BMI of over 70 to 48. I have normal cholesterol, sugar, blood pressure and slightly elevated triglycerides. I will never forget how I felt at my heaviest, when I got winded even putting my clothes on. You have to remember where you were and how far you've come....
I have not been perfect with my eating and exercise (no one is). I have ate things I shouldn't and that's ok because I recognize my mistakes and always get back on track.
I could barely get around at my heaviest and even the littlest things were difficult and excruciating. I now go for walks, I swim, I enjoy doing things instead of being on the sidelines, being intimate is easier, etc. I can't even explain how my life has changed in the last 5 months.
My whole point of this blog is to let all of the people waiting know that it is WORTH it. I know how difficult the waiting is and even for the first few months after surgery but it is definitely life changing. Your time will come!
Today, I cry because of happiness and not because of sadness!
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About Me
Guelph,
Location
27.6
BMI
Surgery
02/15/2012
Surgery Date
May 28, 2011
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