I have been overweight all of my life. My entire school experience was pretty negative. I had a few good friends but most of the kids made fun of me because of my weight, among other things. I remember in 7th grade I started taking appetite supressants and starving myself. I would read a book at lunch and not eat. These girls would sit across from me and stare me down, laughing at me and telling me that I shouldn't even bother because I would never lose the weight. No one would dance with me at the eighth grade dance and I was heartbroken.
High-school was pretty much the same. College also. No men were interested in me. I graduated at 23 years old having never dated anyone in my life. Every year of my life went by with me thinking, "Things will change within a few years. I will lose weight, someone will love me, everything will change." It never did. I didn't get into a relationship until I was 26 years old. It barely lasted, he treated me like crap, and we never even kissed.
By the time I was 28 years old. I made it a high of 244 pounds (maybe up to 250 at one point but I am not sure). I had had enough so I started the process to get RNY.
I am looking forward to the positive changes this will bring about. I can't wait to have my health back. I can't wait to feel confindent about myself. I know I will get this weight off!
I am looking forward to changing my life in other ways as well. I want to stop hiding myself away and live the life that I have always deserved to live but hopefully will have the courage to now.