jennifer_2005

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Hey! I have TT on 4/4 and I'm totally excited about it. I'm a bit nervous and scared, but I know it is for the best. I have only a better future to look forward to. Well, today is an interesting day. I put another straight perm into my hair. I cut it short and decided it would look better straight. It's amazing how much more I think about these things now that I'm a normal weight. I'm learning that there is a balance between confidence and humility and it's not always an easy one to maintain. It mostly has to do with just going with the flow of life and not worrying too much about every little thing and thinking I have to improve it all. Conversely, thinking that all of the good in life amounts to having it made isn't quite a balanced way of thinking either. I am a bit amazed these days that food isn't the comfort it once was. For the first year after gastric bypass, I would still eat some of the bad foods because of their taste, and just put up with the heavy feeling that felt like a fist in the stomach. Or I would put up with dumping, which is worse. But I finally seem to have reached a point where the consequences outweigh the tastes. I am not reaching for snacks anymore near as much, and just eat soup and salads mostly at restaurants. Sometimes it scares me because it is such a dramatic change! Speaking of change, I am considering becoming vegetarian except for eggs and fish. It just seems easier and healthier to go that route, especially since I am not really caring one way or another as much for food anymore. On another note, I had a boyfriend for five months, and we broke up a month ago. Basically, he was not respecting me the way I felt I deserve to be respected. When I told him, he broke it off. I wish relationships were not so difficult. But the right man will show respect and understanding. Ultimately, all women deserve nothing less. I went on another date and the guy told me that it didn't seem like I had enough confidence for him. I took it to heart, but not too much. I would rather have that kind of feedback from a man than have him falling at my feet telling me everything I want to hear. So, I am going to keep trying. For those of you who are Jewish, chag sameach Pesach. I love chocolate macaroons. I only wish they would come in a sugar free variety! Oh well, at least eating matzah isn't as boring as it used to be.:)

Here is my first blog post. I've started to write my story for you and post a few pictures. I took a few days off from work this week. I'm getting ready to start in on a master's project to finish this MBA I've been working on. I'll be done in the summer, so I'm just orienting my mindset toward completion. I also refurnished this apartment and feel great about that. It was pretty bare bones in here. Now, it feels very comfortable and home like, all of which is incredibly important to me. I set the futon I used to have on the corner of the busy street my apartment building is next too. I timed it and literally, within five minutes, it was gone! I'm glad it went to good use for someone. :) Now, I have a beautiful couch and loveseat set, a lovely new tv and computer, as well as a kitchen table. I put the folding table and chairs that I used to use into the closet. They can be used as a spare set for parties or gatherings now. Life is all about improvement, and any step forward is what makes it all worth it. Thank you to the webmaster for creating these new modern OH profiles. These are much more user friendly. Great work!