I bought a scale, now I just need a new brain

Nov 12, 2009

So I stopped by BBB this morning and got a scale in honor of my six-month surgiversary, which was yesterday. It read 259.5 when I got home. Yeah!!!! I really still am down 90 lbs., even after my carb quasi-binges the last couple days.

I'm gonna rant for a second about the carbs: I can so tell when the hormones are acting up, because I want to eat every freaking carb not nailed down. Thank Goddess the hormones have shifted a bit and now I only want to eat every third carby thing that I see. I really feel for people who have constant carb cravings, because it's a beast to constantly have to battle it. If I had to fight that demon every day I don't know how I would. I guess with lots of protein and shakes, but that only takes you so far.

So, back to the scale. Already this thought has crossed my mind: Maybe I should go see if the scale has gone up in the last 2 hrs. since I got home. I kid you not!! That is just psycho on my part. I may have to put the damned thing somewhere inconvenient for a while, so I can acclimate myself to having one around. This is the first time I've ever wanted to get on a scale in the last 20 yrs., and it's safe to say that it's going to be a mental battle. I am really glad I didn't get one before now. Not sure if I should get on the thing first thing in the morning tomorrow or not. One the one hand, I'm pretty sure it will be lower, since it will be first thing in the morning and I'll be NPO at that point. Then again, will that set me up for being upset next week at Dr. Spaw's? After all, that appointment is around midday. Grrrr, I hate all these mental gyrations. Either my new brain needs to arrive or I need to take the silly scale back.

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