Four months out....56 pounds down

Oct 04, 2011

56 pounds since surgery and 70 pounds total when including the pre-op diet.  

I get a bit scared sometimes because the weight loss has slowed a bit and that seems so soon to me. I thought the first 6 months were supposed to be the best. I also do not dump or get sick at all, so I keep catching myself sneaking a bit of this and a bit of that. I need to nip that in the bud NOW, but I don't know how to stop myself.  The other night I ate 5 twizzlers!  Now, that doesn't seem horrific in and of itself, but when you consider that I ate them after already having consumed a sugar-free cupcake and a carb smart ice cream bar...that's bad!  And I do it late at night when everyone else in the house is sleeping, which was always my problem. Closet eating. Grr!

I still track everything I eat, good and bad, on My Fitness Pal every day and the highest calorie day I've had is 1350, with the average being 900-1000, so that's not really terrible. But I don't want that 1350 number to become the norm or to keep creeping up, because that 1350 consists of too much carbs and fat. I need to get this under control before I sabotage my honeymoon period. I may need to seek professional counseling because I don't know how to stop myself.

I know the surgery wasn't on my head, but I did not rearrange my guts to let myself slip back into old habits this quickly!

I've been hovering between 198-201 (how annoying) for 2 weeks now and I know this is why. Sneaky bad carbs!  Yesterday I said, 'I am going to get back on plan and stop being lazy about my food'. And I did great all day...until bedtime. Then I ate a big handful of Pringles at 10pm while watching TV. Ugh.

Hoping for October to be a better month, but with Halloween candy in my house, I hope I can be strong.

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