Jeppa
OUCH!
Apr 08, 2008
So this week I am on vacation with my children as it is their spring break. We, as a family, decided to do something fun. MY idea of fun is lying around the yard, getting a little sun...their idea includes a little bit more activity. We opted not to go to Disney Land because it would be too much walking. How sad is that? Sowe went to Carlsbad Caverns. I also let them drag me down the two-mile hike rather than taking the elevator down...Oh my goodness, that was three days ago and I can barely move! My calves are killing me, my thigh muscles are going to explode, I just kow it, and I am discovering that apparently your back muscles get used when hiking down a steep trail...for a mile.
I feel bad. I don’t want this weight of mine to keep the family from having fun. I am trying like crazy to get motivated, but the more I try, the bigger I get.
Weight this morning is 380....my top weight EVER. How on earth did I let this get so far out of control?? How can I stop it? I do NOT want to gain another ounce...I can’t afford it - I will surely die before I am 40. I can’t!!! I am afraid to go to my doctor for help - I am ashamed...
This is all to painful, physically, mentally and emotionally.