Am I Crazy?

Sep 20, 2009

I am 7 weeks and 10 days post op. I'm still hovering over the "three teens" as I keep going back and forth between 313 and 317. It is a bit frustrating but at least I know it is a normal part of the process since I have not been filled. I will be eligible to be filled at 8 weeks, which will come this Thursday, but scheduling conflicts will require me to wait a bit longer. It is driving me crazy! 

I need to get back to that "restricted" feeling because I know how I am - I have lived with ME all my life! Generally I get a few pounds off of me and I do real good, then someone notices and mentions how good I'm looking and that is all it takes. My mind suddenly kicks into the "I can afford a burger...after all I'm looking good" - - right?  How STUPID is that mentality? Drives me crazy.

Meanwhile I am trying to occupy my extra time with school and such. I am still going to the RAC for exercise only now that my friend Jennifer has joined I am going 5 days a week. Wait - scratch that. I have yet to make the 5th day for the last 2 weeks. There always seems to be something that stops me from going on Fridays. This last week I got major sick. I started by losing everything I had eaten that day and I thought I either had food poisening or had eaten too much? But it didn't make sense. Then I got a fever and woke up with a swollen throat and had a raging headache the entire weekend. I am feeling better now but my energy level is gone, gone, gone! I need to get back to the RAC. We do Zumba classes on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday and free swim on Tuesday and Thursday. My friend Jennifer has decided we need to get "more" out of our swimming so she brought some fins that she uses when snorkling in Mexico.  The first time I used them I thought to myself, "this is easy!" and then went home to do homework. After sitting for about 3 hours without even thinking about moving, I got up to get a glass of water and fell ON MY BUTT!.  So crazy.

I think while I am waiting for the trip to get a fill I will go back on my liver shrinking diet. Maybe I can spark some weight loss as I would really like to have a good number when I get to the doctor so he doesn't think I've just been sitting on my butt waiting for a miracle to happen - now THAT would be crazy!

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