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Well, here it is, over 7 months in!  I still love my rny!  I thought I would have lost more than the 74 lbs. I have but yet I am happy with it!  I had a very stressful summer and fall with family sicknesses and issues so I haven't been able to get in the exercise time I know I required to boost the weight loss up a bit.  But I have gone from a sz. 24 to 16 pants/jeans and a large or xl for shirts!  It was so fun to go shopping for the first time!  I didn't even know where those sizes were in most of the stores!!  It's been a wonderful journey for me!  I wish I had done it years ago, but perhaps it's went so well because I was more than ready!  Good luck everyone!!!

Hello!  So, today I am two weeks post op!  I can't believe that much time has already passed!  I am down 20 lbs since surgery morning and 26 since my preop.  I still don't feel like I've lost anything tho because I am still "puffy" due to all the air they pump into you to do rny laproscopically.  My throat gurgles, ALOT!  It's kinda more annoying than anything but my husband can hear it across my livingroom!  It's embarassing, too!  I'm struggling to get my liquids in along with the protein shakes.  So far Boost is the only brand I can even remotely handle.  I freeze it so it's super thick.  I think they all smell worse than they really taste tho.  Speaking of smell, since my rny, I have a bionic nose, or sense of smell!!  It's totally crazy and things I used to love the smell of, I now hate...it's very weird!  I am very happy it's over and done with.  My husband and sons and my best friends have been an enormous support to me!  They have been wonderful!!  I so appreciate having them in my life!  I have also been overcoming the battle of friends already ditching me.  I don't know why.  Perhaps because they still struggle with their weight as well?  Well, SO DO I!  This isn't easy by any means!  I'm glad my behavior classes prepared me for this.  Were they really friends to begin with?  Most likely not.  Some haven't even called to see how I am, 2 weeks!  Oh, well, I did this for MYSELF and my health!  If they can't cope, to hell with them, right? Anyhow, for anyone seeking this or afraid, don't be!  It was much less pain than I had anticipated.  I got my morphine drip removed 2 days after surgery and haven't taken a pain med yet!  Yippee!  My hubby tells me he can already tell I've lost in my face!  Only for my ass to show it now, right??  Good luck to any of you working your new tool and to those who will be getting theirs soon!!!

Yup, just 20 days to go until surgery!  I thought I'd be SUPER nervous at this point, but my excitement just keeps rising every single day!  I have my pre-op today after work.  I had my blood drawn right away this morning!  (HOLY COW, did they EVER take a lot of blood - yucky!)  I have my last appt. with my surgeon on Monday, the 23rd.  It seems just yesterday I was a couple months out.  I am trying to get as many different samples of protein supplements as possible to have on hand.  I live 100+ miles from any suppliers.  I have been mentally evaluating my friends and family.  I haven't told anyone in  my family but my only sister (I have 7 brothers) because they are all fortunate to not have many weight issues and just wouldn't understand.  My mother is elderly and overweight, all her life.  I think in a weird sense, she has security in me being overweight as well.  I haven't told her anything yet.  I'm sure she suspects something, but I don't have room in my head for the negativity.  In pschy. we had a whole session about reactions, etc.  Months and months ago I pinpointed who I suspected would be a negative draw on my process.  I have tried to avoid this topic with them.  It's MY issue, and it's not about them!  My husband and kids have been wonderful!  My youngest son seems to have this vision that I will be skinny when he comes up to visit me!  It's hard to explain to him how this works!  They keep reassuring me how they love me just the way I am.  That's getting old to hear even tho I know intentions are good!  I do NOT love myself as I am.  I can't wait to be proud of myself again and get my self confidence back.  I can't wait to FEEL GOOD and full of energy again!  I can't wait to skip and run up the stairs!  I can't wait to not worry constantly about what my fat *ss looks like when I am doing something!!  My head is up and ready for this challenge!  The challenge to live my life happily and healthy!!!

59 days until my new birthday!!!  I am so excited!!  Nerves are setting in as well, but more so because of other ppl than myself!  Thankfully I have a best friend 100% behind me. My husband supports my decision but is scared.  My boys are scared but that's normal, right?  Lots of others are very hesitant and not very supportive about my decision.  Most I like to think because of worry and unfortunately some because of possible jealously?  I have tried to prepare myself for others responses but have come to the conclusion it's really not my problem if they have a problem.  Anyhow, I'm looking forward to my new exciting LIFE!!!

Never give up!!!  I was denied two times!!  I was so upset so I decided to insist on talking to the nurse in charge of my review with my health insurance company.  After a 20 minute conversation, she hadn't even LOOKED at, much less analized my appeal paperwork!  She overturned her decision!  I am now approved for gastric by pass!!!  I'm so excited!  I want to begin my new life as soon as possible!!  I'm still nervous, but does it compare to being so self conscious?  I think not!!!  Now my real journey begins....well in February that is!!!  Don't give up those of you having trouble!!  Fight for yourself!!  Merry Christmas!!!

There!  Decision made!!!  My ins. won't even think of covering the sleeve and I had eliminated lap band as a choice for me, so RNY, here I come!  The letter was sent this week for approval!  I'm so excited!!  Next week I have my knee operated on and that will be an "upper" as well to not have all that pain!  And after I know that goes well and I get over my fear of hospitals, I should be more ready for the surgery to change my life!!!  I just hope this is the last fall EVER in my life, that I have to dread trying to fit into jeans I haven't wore since the last winter!!

I got back from vacationing at a Lake and I am MORE than ever ready to have surgery!  I want to ride on the boat without hiding under a towel, I want to try riding the wake board, I want to raft....the list is endless of the wants I have for myself!  Things I thought I would never want to do until I realize it could all be within my reach after having surgery!  I canNOT wait to meet with my surgeon in August!  My husband wants to book a trip to Vegas for my birthday in Nov. but I don't want to do that just yet because hopefully I'll be post surgery at that point.  I want to go when I can feel good about myself.....and walk the endless blocks upon blocks comfortably!!   All these disappointments are only making me more positive in my decision.

Well, today I am off on hopefully my last vacation as a heavy person!!  I can't wait to go to the Lake, or anywhere for that matter, and be excited and not apprehensive, or embarassed.  Packing clothing for such outings has always been depressing.  It's so much harder to dress nice, but comfortably when you are obese.  My coordinator is working on my insurance already and she seemed very positive.  Hopefully Oct.- Nov. I will be having rny.  I can NOT wait!  My excitement is easing my fear.  Good luck everyone with these same struggles!!