that's me crying out for help.  Hello, my name is Jackie.  I am 39 years old, will be 40 in May.  I am a wife and a mother and I am obese.  I have been obese for half my life, and overweight before I became obese for about 8 years so I've spent almost 3/4 of my life as an overweight person.  I am here because I am finally finally going to get some help with my lifelong struggle.  I have done Weight Watchers a zillion times, Jenny Craig, Nutrisystem, Herbalife, Medifast, diet pills both prescription and over the counter and I'm still obese.  Of course, I have lost weight as most of us have when we try to hard enough.  But as you also know, when you stop following your program to the T, the the weight comes back on and then some.  

So, I've been thinking about Lap Band for a couple years now but always used the excuse that my insurance didn't cover it and I couldn't afford to pay for it.  Until November 2007, when I finally decided to quit using that excuse as a cop-out and go for it.  SO, I changed plans through my employer and got on a more expensive plan but one that covers Lap Band.  In January, I went to a seminar and was convinced this was for me.  Not knowing how long it would take for approval, I went ahead and started the process to get approved through my insurance company.  And they approved me!!!!!!!  Already!!!!!!  Thank you Lord!  And I have my surgery scheduled for February 21, 2008.

Well, finally I can see light at the end of my tunnel.  And it scares the poop out of me.  My children, both boys, ages 8 and 2, and my husband are my life and I am doing this so I will be around for a long time for them.  BUT (isn't there always a but) I am scared to death that this too shall fail.  I am not afraid of the surgery.  I'm not afraid of the recovery.  I am afraid that, although from what I can see this is nearly infallible, that somehow I will manage to fail even after having gone through this.  So, say a prayer for me that God will help me with my insecurities and fears and that one day JJ will be skinny!!!

I will update again later.  I started my shakes today, so this is going to be an interesting 2 weeks.

About Me
Cabot, AR
Location
39.8
BMI
Surgery
02/21/2008
Surgery Date
Feb 05, 2008
Member Since

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At a good spot right now?
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4th fill
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Lovin' the Band!!!
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3rd fill scheduled`
Much happier now!!

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