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Sunday was my two year anniversary. I cant believe that. It sure does not seem like its been that long. But, so much has happened since then that it makes sense.
1.) I moved a couple times. I moved to Arizona right after surgery. Two months later, to Washington. A year and a half later, I moved to Oregon.
2.) I got divorced. My husband was supportive until I lost the weight. Then he was always suspicious I was cheating. ALWAYS. Driving home from work, I was probably cheating. Running to the corner store, I was cheating.
3.) I realized that I wanted to be happy, so, I am now living with the person I was meant to be with. I know it because I chased him in kindergartedn. Hence, the move to Oregon.


This blog is being written because I have now hit my bottom weight wise. To be honest, I have not worked out as much as I could have. I maintained the diet post surgery, just the portions have gotten larger. I see it. So I am getting back to basics. I have not lived anywhere that there was a support group I could go to either. And the ones I heard of charged money for them, Sad, really. Especially if you cant afford it. So I found one here in Bend. Near where I work. I am so happy. Today will be the first time I get to go. I am really looking forward to see if there are other people like me who are relearning to get back into better habits. 

I got up and ran this morning. I wasn't expecting it to be so windy and cold, so I only ran a mile. Sunday, on my anniversary, I ran a 5K. It felt great. Three years ago I did a 5K and thought I was going to die, WALKING the entire way. So glad those days are behind me. 

I know no one reads my posts, but they help me get into a groove. I just need to continue to stay in one! 




Have a fantabulous day!

So many things to do this month! Moving over to the other side of the state, new job, new outlook. I look forward to taking care of my Dad. There is so much to do at his place that physical activity will be a normal thing. Old school style!

Last night I went into my room to change into my jammies. I had told my daughter earlier to lay the prom dress she wore for Halloween on our bed to be put away. It was a size 8, a pretty little black thing. I really liked it. I thought just for the hell of it, try it on and see how tight it is.

I know that I always have that "this size will be elusive, so remember that someday it might fit..." feeling in the back of my mind. ALWAYS.... no matter how large the size is.  The day I put on a 24, it fit, and I was feeling ok with it, scared me. I honestly in the back of mind did the math.... OK.... size 14 is the average size, I am a 24, and sizes run in twos, so I am only 5 sizes larger than the average... how sad? I rationalized it as if it was normal for everyone to gain weight and not be worried about it. I had gained 72 pounds in 8 years. That 10 pounds a year thing is no joke.

This time the size 8 fit.

I walked into the living room wearing my 10 year old daughters size 8 prom dress and my husband whistled. Yes, the dress was too big for her..... But fit me! I now have a date night dress......

Aaahhh. Another month gone. I weighed in at my last doctors appointment expecting a weight gain, as it always has seemed that I gain weight in between appointments. At least, it was that way unti l the RNY. I have officially lost 110 pounds. I tried on some jeans, and could squeeze into a size 9. They were tight, but I could button and zip them. Yes.... IT COUNTS!! So, I left with a sense of knowing that some day, soon, I will get to buy new clothes, in sizes that wont make me cry.

I hope everyone is finding the success that makes their lives better for them. It is indeed a scary thing to embark on a journey that may end up change the way people around you see you. I can say that for the first time since I was 17 I feel like I can walk into a room and people are not saying, "wow, she let herself go". I am finally a hottie..... Woot Woot!

Well, I am part of the Hundred Club. 7 months and I had lostt 100 pounds. Today, I am at 107 pounds down , at 8 months. I am slowly losing now, not very much. But, its better than the slow and steady gain of 2 pounds a month. That was killing me. So I am currently at 165 pounds.

Looking back at myself from 1 year ago when my husband and I made the decision to work out every day, eat better, get in shape, stay healthy, I saw why I struggled. I was addicted to sugar and fast food. I seriously was!!!! I pretty much just drink water and coffee now. So odd. We go to dinner and I order water without that devil on my shoulder telling me to get a pepsi. I dont even have interest in it soda at all now. A friend of mine told me that breaking the addiction to soda took a long time. I didnt realize how long. I had surgery 6/3/10. I stopped wanting soda in November. And Charlie Sheen only needs rehab from drug and drinking for 2 weeks..... crazy right?

I now fit in a size 10, which is remarkable for me. I cant express how that makes me feel, although I am sure you all can understand 100%. I have friends who used to consider me their "fat" friend, who I havent seen since before the surgery. I get to see them tomorrow. WEIGHING LESS THAN THEM. I will have a different look on my face when I see them. They will freak. I will be saying... "look at my butt! Its GONE!" Seriously, I have no butt. I was worried I would look like Kim Kardasian twins in one pair of pants forever.

I hope to get on here more often, and keep motivated. Maybe seeing an old pair of pants with my new ones will help me out a bit right???? I still have two sizes to go before I am 100% happy, but its waaaaaaaaaay better than being a 24 wanting to be a size 14. That was something to make me happy. Its odd knowing I DONT HAVE TO LOSE MORE WEIGHT UNLESS I WANT TO. (Insert giggle here )

So, I have gone over the 80 pounds mark in right around 4 months, but I am plateauing a bit. I know it will pass, but it still hurts a bit. My goal now is 100 by Christmas, which, if I step it up, WILL happen.

BUT..........

Shopping for clothes got easier..... I went to get new pants for work. I still use the 20's and 22'a I had leftover. Mostly because I knew it would be a waste to buy anything right away. My highest was 24 BTW....
So I go and get new pants. I went to the "big girl section", because lets face it, thats where I ahve shopped for 10 years. They were too big. I was able to get 14's for the first time since I was in the military. Yes, in the Army I was a 14. In junior high I was a 12.... But I was never "fat". Just "thick". Fat came when I was 26, and became sedentary.

So buying new clothes is WAAAAY more fun now, but I don't want to waste my new found shopping experience on 14's. I am going to wait until I am at least a 10 or 8 before I hit it good.

Looking at my size as opposed to weight is something I need to focus on too. I am stalled, but lost a size. So inches are leaving. But pounds aren't. So I haven't weighed myself lately. And I don't think I will for a couple weeks. I need to fiocus on activity  and not worry about numbers.

Being this ready to get to the next level is soooo incredible.


I checked out a book at the library today. Is Weight Loss Surgery Right For you? By Glenn Goldberg. What an incredible read. He went through everything I have. Sadly, he passed away from heart problems NOT from complications. BUT...... I have to say my motivations had been slipping, since there are no support groups here in Port Angeles, WA. His book re-instilled it in me. I read his book almost completely this afternoon.

I have not written in two and a half months.... no computer!

Well, I have lost 78 pounds. Three and a half months.... Almost 4. I have not been under 200 since 2002. I went in to try on pants because I didn't know what size I wore. 

I grabbed 16's, because I knew I had lost weight, but I wasn't expecting to see a smaller size. Everytime I try on clothes they are bigger than the last time I tried them. This time, the 16 fit perfect.

See.... I was a 24 when this started. So, I feel incredible. When I get into a 10, I will be even better!!!! Not since high school........ I have recently relocated, and just got my membership at the gym.



Woo Hoo! Here we go baby!!!!! 

Today is the first day after a very long weekend. Husbands birthday, the 4th, lots of friends, and a ton of food. It was really hard to see people enjoy those summer flavors, and not be a part of it. But, after a week of no weight loss, I finally started again. It made it worth it. I am 33 days out, and 37 pounds lighter. I haven't weighed this in two years. I am looking forward to the 199 mark, as it will be for the first time in 8 years. My goal is to retake my wedding pictures. I was horrified to see them, as my back fat was hideous. I want my husband to see me the way I want to see myself, so he knows he has the most confident woman in the world.

Today, is the first real day I felt myself after surgery. To be honest, I was in pain, tired and very emotional. But I am just now feeling a rush of motivation running through me so cool that it excites me. This process has just started and I am looking forward to it.  I will update this as much as I can so that I keep myself going in the right direction, and stay focused. Yay!