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Well the final two days have flown by and I am not really worried about my diet anymore, its just second nature, other than the sweetness of the shakes its easy at this point.  Called in today and got my surgery time, 11am tomorrow I will go under and start my new life...I am excited and to be honest a little nervous, I don't have a lot to say today as I am thinking about tomorrow, so I will let you know how it all turns out!  Wish me luck!

I decided to take the weekend and spend it with my kids, and not bother with any kind of technology....my surgery is coming up on wednesday and I wanted to make sure I spent all the free time I had with them, just in case....I know I am going to be fine but you never know what could happen it is surgery, so I decided to make sure I pushed all aside and just be with them.  As far as the diet goes, well at this point really what can I say, it is what it is, did it get easier from the first few days, of course, but it still sucks.  At this point it is just becoming routine, I am so excited to be able to have cottage cheese again, and soup, just something to get away from these shakes.  On the flip side I am very proud I made it this far and I need to give myself more credit that I do.  Instead of thinking about not being able to eat and how much it sucks, I need to realize I am doing something I havent been able to do in a long time, and that is say F*ck off to the craving I use to give into.  I hope everyone had a great weekend, and the count down is down, less than 72 hours to go!  WOW 

Well here we are looking at day 9 and let me tell you last night was HELL!  I had to work at buffalo wild wings for the radio station and I would be lying if I told you I wasn't thinking about stabbing the guy next to me eating his spicy garlic wings!  Though I wanted to, I chose the high road, finished up work and went home and had a shake....I know its gotten easier, but these shakes are really getting hard to choke down!  I have mixed it up as much as I can to stay in the limits of what I can have, but man I would love to just eat some cottage cheese or soup.  I fight through though because though I hate these shakes, I LOVE the way I feel...so much easier getting up from sitting, my knees and back don't instantly start aching, and I have SO much more engery.  Well they say nothing worth its weight is easy to come by, so I have to just remember the long term happiness this will bring opposed to the instant gratification those wings would have given me!  Stay strong people, and be proud of yourself, you are kicking ass!

So last night I found myself really struggling again with the diet, but I knew it was all mental, because why would I give up now.  I was hungry but my mind is pissed off because it knows that the only thing I am going to put in my body is either a shake or water.  So the struggle was really hard last night, but I knew good news could be on the way since I have a doctors visit this morning!  Before I get into that, I have decided to mess with my protein, the first week of this diet I was taking my full scoop of protein and putting it in my first shake in the morning, that way I wouldn't have to deal with carrying powder around all day....well I thinking that is why I find myself so hungry at night, so this morning I put half my protein in and will do the other half tonight when I get home...I will report back tomorrow and see if that helps.....So the BIG news, after all the hard work of week one, I am seeing the results....I started this process at 524, this morning I am proud to say I weighed in ( Fully clothed btw ) at 502!!!! So around 22 pounds the first full 7 days of this diet...that is with no excersise...this week I am going to do some extra walking and see how things pan out before the surgery which is one week from today!!! Stay strong people, you are going to love the new you!

ok so I can really say I made it through the first week, even though it is the 7th day I have been on this, it was on Wednesday that I started, but either way I am happy to have made it this far.  Last night I noticed my hunger was a little higher than it was through the day.  I think my mind is trying to break old habits, as I was a HORRIBLE night time eater...after the family would head to bed, I would head to the frig for not just a snack, but a meal or lunch at very least.  So maybe its not so much I am hungry more so than it is my mind telling me " Hey its time to eat!"!  However the turkey my family had last night looked very good!  I am to the point where these shakes are just so hard to choke down because I am sick of the same thing over and over, plus like I said before I am not a guy that enjoyed a lot of sweets before this.  But needless to say the job must get done because I have decided to live.  I will admit I am getting a little bogged down with all the negative stuff about WLS that keeps popping up, I try to avoid reading it, because lets face the fact this is kind of scary.  But I have decided that I want to live and thats the bottom line.  Tomorrow I am going to the doctors office to weight myself for the 1st time since I started the diet and I am excited to see how I do...stay strong everyone and I look forward in reporting the weight loss back tomorrow!

People I am here to tell you it gets soooo much better...Today I feel like a new man, I know that sounds extreme but I feel like I have so much energy today, more than I have had in a long time.  The biggest issue I have now is having to pee ALL THE TIME!  I think I am going to the bathroom at least 9 times a day...so I either got a bad prostate or I have my dad's bladder!  Another issue that I am running into is actually getting all my shakes in during the day.  I know everyones pre-op diet is different mine was 15 days of either 5 sugar-free carnations or slimfast 3-2-1, plus I could have sugarfree jello and popcicles, but now I think my stomach and body has gotten use to the fact that I am not going to cave in and eat, so they are adapting and getting smaller, which is making it harder to get those shakes in!  Plus I am up to about 200 ounces of water a day to get hydrated for surgery day...a little tip my awesome nurse practioner Derri told me to do to help with sickness from being put under...so all that water is filling me up big time!  So we close in on 1 week and I really feel the worst is behind me...I really hope I didn't just jinx myself by saying that!  Keep up the good fight people, you are going to be so much happier in the long run!  Stay strong and talk to you tomorrow!

So I think I made a mistake today...normally I put all my protein powder into my first shake in the morning, but I didn't do that today.  So of course I feel very hungry right now.  Today has been a string of test for me...first I had a meeting at Starbucks, so I have to choke down decaf coffee, then I had to go grocery shopping, then I had a brithday party that was serving a pizza buffet and right now the family is enjoying dinner, so I thought I would hope on and write.  BTW I went back and realize I should proof read, but I think everyone knows what I am saying.  I just realize something as I wrote this, I went grocery shopping today and I didn't have any back or leg pains as I was walking through the store.  I haven't stepped on a scale since I started this diet, and though I know I am losing weight, its not enough to make that big of a difference yet, so I guess this goes and shows the power of keeping plenty of water in your system, because I am sure that is making the biggest difference in how I feel.  I don't know maybe I am crazy, or just damn hungry.  One thing I noticed too was my now odd craving for healthy food, once again it could be the hunger, but I am not craving the bad food, its grilled chicken and broccoli, even fish sounds great right now....which I never liked before ( unless long john silvers was serving it) maybe its my body comprimising with itself because its hungry.  Well back to the grind tomorrow, as I shoot for my week goal on wednesday.  The 30th is coming up fast and I can't wait...I hope everyone had a great weekend and stay strong, you are making someone out there very proud of you!

Well today was the first true test for me so far on this liquid diet.  I found myself alone at home, where before I was at work and busy, and without a frig full of food.  Though today would have been an easy to cheat I am very proud to say I didn't.  Today I will say that I found myself very hungry, I am not sure if that because I wasn't putting down water like I do at work, or if I was because I was dumb and sat here watching a Man verus Food marathon.  I think that there is something to be said about have a water cooler in your house, because its nice to have cold fresh water ready right away like at work then using a faucet.  Another thing I noticed today, it was easier to get up from a sitting position, and I ran up the stairs to grab something and after I got to the top I realized 2 thing, first I just ran up the stairs, and second I was as out of breath as I normally am.  This gave me HUGE motivation, also I noticed that where I use to look at me feet and get grossed out because the fat was starting to actual form a "cankle" its gone, and you can see the line where my foot normally has a crease where the fat is, now I know that I am only 4 days into this diet, but it makes me feel good that I am seeing the benifits of where my life is headed.  So one more day to go and I made it through my first concern, and that was the weekends.  So we move forward and push on, have a great night everyone and stay strong, you know you can do this its time to just believe!

Well they say the third and fourth day are the hardest, and here we are at day 3 and im either getting use to this or just getting delusional or im getting over the hump.  The MASSIVE headache that I had most of the day yesterday is gone and the hunger pain certainly are not as bad.  The challenging part I think is going to be this weekend.  At work its easy to not think about it and focus on work...at home when I have down time will be the challenge, but we just keep pushing through right?  To be honest at this point I feel more bored than anything else, that may sound odd but I not so much dreading not eating, Im dreading drinking that next shake more than anything.  For a big man I was never really into sweet food all that much, now would I partake in a blizzard from DQ every now and then...hell yea I would, but it was never a craver of sweets.  Now I am forced to suck down these shakes all day and its rough, my saving grace is getting home after work and eating my beef broth and V8 Spicy...I am pretty sure I may have gone crazy if these were not an option.  So another day closer to a new life, I guess it could be worse..I could be eating a giant burger right now with cheese sticks and a soda...though it sounds good, I would rather be doing this and living then eating crap and dying...stay strong people we are getting there one freakin shake at a time.

Well here we are on day 2 of the liquid diet and so far I haven't killed anyone yet....the day is still early so I better not get too ahead of myself.  I am excited for this...I had my pre-op physical today and I was a little nervous when I walked in the office and the nurse had a needle and lube sitting out...thank god that wasnt for me 3 viles of blood, 2 x-rays of my chest and 1 EKG later I think we are ready to go....I was a little upset when I found out I have to give myself a shot in the tummy of thigh everyday for a month after my surgery, but if that is the price I have to pay to spend the next 50 years with my kids give me the needles!  Anyways better go have a shake and pee for the 394 time today!  I will check in tomorrow..Stay strong!