I had the surgery in December instead of May.

Sep 14, 2014

The couple days before the surgery schedule, I started to get sick. By Saturday I had a fever and a little cough. It was memorial day weekend and I was starting to feel that getting sick was a superstitious warning that I would die on the table. I didn't realize at the time that I was letting anxiety control my decision and I am the type that believes things happen for a reason. I cancelled my surgery the day before. I felt like the biggest piece of crap for doing it. I was scared. I had started getting pnuemonia after my foot surgery and I was afraid it would happen again and kill me because I have asthma. I thought I would have a pouch leak...because I am a revision. The Dr. told me at my pre-op visit that I have a 1/3 chance for a leak because I am a revision...I had no idea my chances were so high until that visit. It freaked me out! Then I get sick and my mind and anxiety took over. I feel bad because my doctor thinks I just chickened out and doesn't believe that I got sick. He told me to my face that he didn't believe me and one thing I am not ever is a liar. I know anxiety took over and I thought being sick was a sign but, I DID get sick. This is the first time in my life when someone has not believed me :(    I didn't realize at the time, but I probably would have been fine. Dr. Dan has always been great and I feel bad that he doesn't believe that I was sick at all. After my sister had the surgery with Dr. Dan a couple of months later, my anxiety reduced and I went in. I was lucky that they even rescheduled surgery after my cancelling. I stayed indoors and made sure I didn't go around anyone sick because I was afraid of being sick during surgery though at that point, I would have had the surgery anyway. December 31st 2013 was my surgery date.

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