I know, I know, I know.....

Jan 20, 2009

     I have figured out my triggers after I gained 2 pounds. I am really a food addict, I have been struggling for the past month.  This guy that I am seeing, helping wants me to go with him to Montego bay there I would have to wear a swim suit and I have been eating like 90 going north, the thought of wearing a swimsuit is making me crazy, not to mention I saw one of his other "friends" and my skinny god sister this weekend and I didn't say I was giving up, yet my actions of over eating are saying I am giving up...I had cereal today, rice, meat, and veggies, and a bag of cheetos, a soda, one mini reese cup and an entire milkway, not to mention the cake and Ice Cream I ate yesterday. Damn, this is crazy and i really feel like I need an intervention, I am eating because I don't want to go to Jamaica, I don't want to be around him and his friends, my best friend has been tripping because i am seeing him and I would love for her and her dude to go with me, yet she is hating for no good reason and I don't want to wear a swimsuit. You know when he is not around I see my body differently, I don't feel uncomfortable, yet when he is near me I want to shrink away, he has never said anything, it is me, I just want to be healthy, tonite i am getting back on my tread mill, I cant wait for my knee to heal, I know once I lose the weight then the stress on my knee with  ease and it won't hurt has much because I won't be as heavy, On a lighter note:  PRESIDENT OBAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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